Focused on my future…
Happy Friday buddies…
Whew…
Didnt think this one could get here soon enough!
I have had a pretty good week over all…Logged my food. Stayed UNDER 1200 calories every day. (Please dont panic, I wont always keep it that low, just what I need to do my first week back) and I have gone to the gym three days (M-W) for my work out AND walked afterwards. (One night we went for an hour and a half walk!).
I did take last night off…I was starting to just feel Blah…Like I was getting sick. Not sure if I truly am, or if my body is just in shock from being back at the gym…LOL…
Either way, the next three days will be crucial…I will need to find a way to get my hour of cardio in each day whether at the gym or on hikes with my dog…If I can, then I will call this first week back a HUGE success…
So far, the eating part has been easy…
Its always amazed me how 1200 calories fills me up. NO, Not always. There are some days, no matter what, that my body wants to eat, but MOSTLY, if I use those 1200 calories wisely, lots of protein and fiber, and energy boosting foods, then yes, I go to bed every night full and satisfied…
The exercising is still a bit of a struggle…
Two big reasons. I HATE my gym right now…And my work hours are very off right now…So these two things make me not want to go. So every day is a struggle…But so far, I am winning…
I have posted some “Skinny” pics through out my house so I can focus on where I want to get to…
Some days, I look at those pictures and I dont know who that girl was…that girl that in just a few months dropped 64 pounds…She looked happy. YOUNG…Healthy…(And, by the way, I was still 180 pounds!!!) but when you compare that to 250 pounds where I started, you can see that she was a new person…
I am desperately trying to get there again…This time a little older…A little wiser…A different support system…But I still want to get there…
Its hard to forget the past…I cant continue to dwell on wehre I was, and how I let myself regain 30 pounds…I can acknowledge it and move on…Because if I dwell on that time, then I get stuck. Frustrated. And I want to give up. Thinking I will never get there again…Wondering HOW I let myself get back here…
I just cant do that anymore…Spent soooo much time beating myself up over it…
So I have really tried to just focus on my future…When on my elliptical, I envision myself, my future self, in the Spring, in smaller clothes…
I envision myself at the weight I want to be…
And in this way I hope to start eliminating the past and focusing on my future…
I have sooooooooooo far to go…It seems overwhelming…But if I focus on one step. One pound. One gym visit. One meal at a time, it seems completely reasonable and doable…
I wish you all the best success today…May you tackle your own steps and pounds!
The one day at a time works best. I have had the same 25 pounds to get off for the last 5 years. It may not seem like much, but the stubborness of it is what I hate. So, I am not giving up. I am trying new things, giving up old habits and inventing a new lifestyle with eating and fitness. You can do it too if I can.
One step at a time is right. Go idea about the pictures.