Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

I just do not handle changes to my routine well…

And I have been doing so well on this journey that even though I knew obstacles WOULD come, it kinda sucks that they came just eight weeks in…

I was hoping to be a bit stronger when they arrived…

The change in my job and actually, a career change, while exciting, and overall good, has left me feeling a bit funkylicious…

So here’s the bad:

My eating was bad. NOT awful, but bad. My journaling was half assed and I actually skipped two days in my journal for the first time since my restart. And my exercise was about half of what it should have been…

I feel the worst about my journaling. I know writting my food down is the number one key to my success and when I dont do it, I feel like a failure…

But not wanting to focus on the bad, here was the good:

I did another 5k. My favorite: American Heart Association Heart Walk. I do this one in memory of my dad who died from complications in 2003. And I always imagine him smiling down on me when I do it…I do hope he has been proud of me in the 6 years since his passing…

Now, this is my second 5k this year. And the really weird thing about this one? It didnt FEEL like a 5k in ANY way. Seriously…No muscle aches. No blistering. No real sweat. It was really really weird…

We got done, and I kid you not, I felt like I could go again?? WTH???

Has my body accostumed itself to 5k’s suddenly? I took my dog Zoe, and maybe because I was focused on her (This was her FIRST 5k) I failed to notice my own discomfort. I truly dont know. But I dont know if I liked the feeling.

I guess its time to move to the next phase…Jogging/running…Gotta keep challenging myself…

Next on my list is my 10k in September…This is the big one for me. The New Albany Walking Classic…It is STRICTLY for walkers and its a timed race. Its awesome. They will actually throw you off the course if they see you running…Its a GREAT incentive for walkers who are intimidated by you runners…(Yes you Stacey!! LOL)

So yesterday as I was lounging around the house kind of just chillin, I reviewed some picture discs that my ex had burned for me…All of my pictures from 2001 on…Talk about a freakin trip down memory lane…Not only personal, but man, I have been EVERY size under the sun…LOL…

Nasty pics of me at my highest around 250 pounds…ANd some AWESOME inspirational pics of me at my personal lowest, 179…Damn…I looked GOOD. Even at 179 (Which is still Fat by the way!!)

I confess…I did get momentarily depressed for letting myself regain some weight…

But again, tried to retrain my brain…

I decided to focus on the 5 and 10 K’s…

My first one I did was in May of 2004…I have continued doing them every year since then…Only managed one last year due to my back surgery, but other than that, have done 2-3 consistently every year…

This is a grand acheivement…To me anyway…

I am in the process of making a video collection of all my walk pics…

I think this will help motivate me and keep me focused on what I have acheived in five years on this journey…I also am going to post and print some of my “Skinnier” pics to remind myself that I did it once and I can AND WILL do it again…

I think these things will help turn the sadness and disappointment into motivatioin and focus…

So I am trying very hard to just shake off this week and not let it derail my entire train…It was one week and in the grand scheme of my life, it wont matter much, if I dont let it…

That, my friends, is the key…I can not let it…

So a new week…

Some new goals…

Some new focus…