Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

Why oh why do they fly by so fast??

Well, I have lots to say as usual! LOL…

I can now safely reveal the secret I blogged about a few weeks ago…

I start a new job tomorrow…A PERMANENT, full time job! WOO HOO!!!

This will be my third “First Day” this year, and I can tell you without a doubt, I am tired of them…First one in January, down in Florida, then laid off…

Then again in July, with a temp position, and now this…I TRULY hope this will be my forever home…Or at least my home for quite awhile…I am sooo tired of being in limbo where a job is concerned.

I have been working for the last seven weeks, but it was a temporary gig, and I hated it…

Dont get me wrong, I was greatful for the temp gig, but let me tell you. I will NEVER work for a temp service again if I can help it. It sucked. They sucked. Period.

So anyway, I am excited. Grateful. And a bit nervous to be starting over, once again. But its a great job. Great salary. And a great opportunity. And I am soooooooo grateful in this economy to have finally found a permanent position after just five months…

Tommorrow also marks the seventh week of my health and fitness “re-launch”. As promised, I reviewed my journal again today just to gage my progress…

Overall, I am pleased…Really…

I havent felt this committed and motivated in many years…

Keeping my journal is going well. I continue to write everything down, even when I am not doing stellar.

An average of my calories over the last three weeks shows a daily average of 1478. This number was affected by just a handfull of bad days…Three, MAYBE four of the last 21…But also shows something…Three of four days is all it takes to mess you up…

My goal daily is 12-1300…So I am running almost 200 calories higher than I would like…So this DEFINITELY needs tweaking…

I often hate reviewing my journal. Afraid of what I might see…But I also know I MUST see it in black and white…

I did accomplish one more goal this week…As many of you know by my journals and my facebook updates…I went back to the gym…WOO HOO!!!

Seriously, it was like coming home…

I missed it soooooooooooo much…And getting back on my elliptical was sooo much easier than I thought it would be.

It continues to amaze me how much better MENTALLY I feel when I am working out…I feel IMMEDIATELY healthier…Happier…And more confident…

Even if I am the same exact weight, MENTALLY, I feel thinner…

And as most of us know, mental challenges are often the most difficult to overcome…So I am sooo glad to be back at my workout routine…

I did four days at the gym…And two days with an hour long walk…For a total of 6 days of exercise…

I was supposed to go to the gym today for my fifth day at the gym and to complete my goal for the week with my gal Nikki, but, well, it didnt happen…UGH…

Just like God intended, my Sundays are usually reserved for REST…LOL…

So overall, I still have many areas to improve…I keep telling myself that perfection is NOT the goal…Perseverance is…

I want to get my calories back down…I want to continue to increase my DAYS of exercise and my time spent at the gym…I want to continue to lesson the days I flub up…I want to make better choices when I am out in social functions.

But to be honest…

With just seven weeks in…And yet another new life change before me again…I still feel good…Like this is a battle that I am in fully…

I have no official number of loss yet…Soon. Soon I will get on that scale…But this journey is not about a scale this time around for me. And I mean that. Been there.

This time its about permanent, life long, HEALTHY changes…Where I feel good about myself no matter what weight I eventually settle at…

Little changes are starting to emerge. Probably unnoticed by anyone but myself…

The thinning of my face…The loosening of a waist line…Just ever so slightly…But they are there…

I feel focused…I feel excited…And for the first time in 2009, I can honestly say, I feel HAPPY!!!!!

Have a wonderful week all!!!