Table for one please…
Thats right. I am having a big old giant whopping pity party…
Just for me!!
So. Its been a little over a week since I was last here…
Much has happened.
Monday the BF got news that after 15 years witht he Home Depot, he will be laid off in April.
Wednesday, TOM arrived with a hateful VENGENCE. I mean, CRAMPS, and the urge to eat anything and everything in site. It was a BAD one. Add in some adult acne, and well, I am sure I was a purty little thang!
Thursday my little sister flew in for a four day visit.
So Iknew I would be off kilter for the week. I didnt WANT to be, that is just how it ends up happening with me. No gym. Food journal goes to the wayside, and once again I take a break from my goals.
Normally, this wouldnt bother me. As a matter of fact, I am a big fan of taking breaks. I think it helps with long term success. But my breaks are just too darn frequent.
And today I sit here just. FRUSTRATED.
I went back to the gym on Monday. Went back to my journal on Monday, and all is okay. But NOT great.
I am frustrated with myself and my lack of progress. I didnt expect miracles. But I expected SOME noticeable changes after 7 weeks…And not only do I not notice ANYTHING. I feel fatter than ever.
Seriously.
Just uploaded pics from the weekend with my sis and I swear my face is fatter than ever. It looks gross. I look gross. And I am mad. I want to chuck everything and say FUCK IT. (Excuse my french!)
I am sooooooooooooooooo tired of it all.
I dont do anything for four months and maintain. I do things right for the first time in for months, and maintain. I dont get it.
I want to give up.
I want to starve myself.
I want to cut every inch of fat off my body.
I want to bury my head in a pint of chocolate ice cream and be done with it all.
Yep. Thats me there in the corner. Party of one…
I will take the steak, and you might as well deep fry it for me…
I can really relate to this (see my post, Crash and Burn for Saturday). That was my pity party.
I felt (feel?) the same way. Working so hard, eating right, exercising like mad and nothing. I mean, as you say in the past I ate what I wanted and maintained my weight.
Losing weight is hard, there are no two ways about it. ALL OF US on buddy slim should get MEDALS, like heroes do, because we are being heroes trying to change our lives for the better and for the people we love and care for. And we will be less of a drain on the healthcare system when we succeed. (Yeah, I’m a bit dramatic).
But, no one gives us that. So we have to give them to ourselves and support ourselves.
Try some tweaking. Are you eating too little? Are you doing too little cardio, too much weight, etc?
Post what you are doing and get some suggestions, there is a WEALTH of information here….all us buddies who are living diet testers.
It will take time, but I just keep faith, believing that what I’m doing is right and one day (soon), there will be sudden drop of like 5 lbs. And the work will pay off.
Hmm..not sure if I read your blog before but…I just checked out your before and after pictures! And WOW!!! You look amazing!!! So you had a slip up, don’t beat yourself up! Your back here and that’s all that matters. Keep up the great work!! and lol at the table for one!! lol=)
one more thing….just read under your tips that you said…
IF YOU MESS UP ONE DAY, OR EVEN ONE MEAL, WHO CARES? In the long run, one day is not going to ruin it. Shake it off and get RIGHT BACK ON TRACK. Dont wait “Till Monday” or “Next week”. HEck, start at the very next meal
Oh, Dawnie, my friend, don’t you dare give up! You are doing this FOR YOU! Take a long look at your food journal…at your exercise journal. Are you doing the same exact things everyday or each meal? You need to mix things up a bit. Try some new recipes or try a different class. Our body will adjust if we are doing the same thing everyday or too frequently. It becomes routine and our body doesn’t have to try the way it once did. Your routine may be part of your woes…one step at a time my friend! Don’t let this break get you down!
My Sensei recently recommended to me to stop counting calories, and instead count protein grams. He’s got me eating high protein from lean meats, egg substitutes, tuna, cottage cheese…things like that. Also, for snacks, fruits and veggies. He’s got me staying away from processed foods of all kinds, too. Also, for bread or rice products, stay away from white…eat only whole grain and wheat products. As for potatoes, he’s got me eating sweet potatoes instead of the regular. For me, switching my food in this way has worked wonders. Calorie wise I am eating about 300 more calories a day then before (In tracking the protein grams on my fitday program, I also see the calories). My protein grams have been between 80-120 each day. I really am noticing a difference, and the weight has started coming off nicely again. It was hard for me at first to get used to eating a variety of fruits each day because I’ve never been a fan of fruit…but, I am actually starting to crave it now.
Anyway…I know you’ve got what it takes inside you to get the job done. I hope that you can find it and bring it out to the forefront. I really believe you can do this!
Like gtgirl above says, I recommend you post what foods you’re eating, and what exercise you’re getting…maybe that will help others give you more specific advice.
Hang in there!
I agree you may need to shake things up! I use this useful site. It is the Zig Zag Diet! It has helped me a lot! Check it out! It may or may not be what you are looking for, but it is worth a look!
Have a good one!
Big HUGS!
http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm
Is there room on your table? I would like to join your party my friend!! Hang in there Dawnie, you and I both know this is a temporary thing!! Just think, I gained 11 lbs. I have every reason to drown my sorrows in a gallon of ice-cream…but of course, we know better and we don’t!! You’re human darling, shit like this is bound to happen!
Oh Dawnie…do I know where you’re coming from. Like you and our girl Jo, I’m struggling again. THANK GAWD I’ve maintained–but I’m not losing and I’m feeling fatter than ever. (Which is ridiculous even as I write it since I’m maintaining…but it’s how I feel.)
I have been Buddy-Slacking lately instead of Buddy-Slimming (and am also just seeing TOM out the door at my house.)
I don’t know why I don’t get it–when I’m Buddy-Slimming regularly, I lose weight and keep getting healthier…when I don’t, I fall off track.
At any rate, I’m back again and here to help support you. Try to think positively and dump the negative thoughts. Remember that you CAN do this!!
Thanks as always, ladies…I do think its time to do something completely different…I have been doing the calorie thing for a LOOOONG time…Ugh…
Dawnie, is that the pic you talk about? I think you look great! Hang in there you can do it. I feel your pain, girl.
I hear ya, though I bet you are doing better since this is an old blog. Anyways, I will take a table for one, but just for one little indulgence (mine was cookies today) and then WE will get on with it yes? All the best Dawnie.
*hugs*
I am pictureless….lol
Speaking of which… love your glasses pic!