Random and Rude Observations
So I am certain this blog will probably piss off someone, and for that, I do slightly apologize. But its been churning in my head all day and I gotta get it out!!
So, I am kind of frustrated….
And honestly, I dont even know if I have a right to be…
So, first observation. Complaint. Frustration.
*Those girls in the lunch room playing at dieting.
Dont get me wrong. I have stumbled 1000 times along the way of this journey. And true, I have no idea what is really going on with these girls. But they appear in every job I have had.
Those girls who are ALWAYS on a diet when asked. Yet, look like they never lose any weight. I guess, what frustrates me, is they will sit at lunch. Eating their Lean Cuisines. Or their bland little salads. Then on the way out of the lunch room, grab a cheese cake or a muffin.
Every day they play at dieting. And every day they talk about what they did last night or ate, and I can tell you. It is not a healthy lifestyle.
I think it annoys me because they will look at my plate, which has REAL food. Baked Chicken. Veggies. And they will say “I thought you were dieting?” And I want to screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeam.
ONE. I am NOT dieting. This is the way I live my life.
TWO. My baked chicken and side of veggies is EVERY bit as healthy as your Sodium ladden Lean Cuisine meal.
Trust me. I am an OVER educated dieter.
These are the same people that will go out to dinner and order a grilled chicken ceasar salad. One of the WORST salads you can consume. But hey, its a salad, right? It MUST be healthy…Umm. NO. Then, when I order a SMALL plain hamburger, they run their mouths. Again, I know how many calories I am consuming, and I know what is a healthy choice and what isnt.
Now. I am VERY open to new information and helpful suggestions. And I too eat Lean Cuisines. But, I am going for an all over life style make over here. Not a diet to lose ten pounds. I dont want to look good in my wedding dress. I am not doing this to get back at an ex boyfriend. I am not doing this to be part of the “girls club” at work.
I am doing this FOR ME. So that I can live a long and healthy life and feel good doing it.
I got a lot of stuff left to do on my list. You know what I mean??
So, anyway, I guess sometimes I just want to shake these girls and say WOULD YOU GET SERIOUS or just stop pretending????
I CAN honestly say that until 2004 when I did decide to lose weight I was NEVER one of those people who dieted on and off. Actually, I had never seriously tried until 04 when I did Weight Watchers, and maybe thats why I have no patience for them. I didnt pretend. I just got fat and let myself get fat. And then when I got scared and fed up, I actively changed.
Second observation:
*I HATE the physics of this journey.
This is what I mean by that statement. As previously mentioned, from about Mid September till Mid December I did NOTHING towards my journey. I was stressed. Moving. Looking for a job. Etc. I ate whatever I wanted and I did NOT exercise. Somehow or other, I managed to not lose or gain ANYTHING for three months.
How, I have NO IDEA.
So, basic math. Physics. Whatever you want to call it would say that as soon as I did start SOMETHING, the weight would come off, right?? Isnt that how it works??
I have been back on plan for a month now. True. Not 100 percent, but pretty darn close…I am running at about 85%.
I have a job which in itself is movement I did not have before.
I stay at or around 1300 calories CONSISTENTLY.
And I am working out 4-5 days a week. HARD.
Now, one of those things, I think, would add success.
All of them combined are SURE to equal a loss right??? How could it not??
Now, my little disclamer. I really have no idea if I have lost or not, because I am on a scale hiatus till next week. The scale is a sabatoger to me and I would prefer to not see it right now. For if it DOESNT show a loss, I know I will be sorely tempted to throw up my hands in defeat.
So it IS possible I have lost.
But I dont FEEL it.
My clothes feel the same. I look the same. I am sure I am as fat as ever. And I dont understand how I could be. Honest.
How could doing these things for ONE MONTH after not doing them for THREE MONTHS not lead to some weight loss???
This is one of the most frustrating journeys I have EVER been on in my life…
GOOD GRIEF!!!!
Hiya Dawnie girl!
It’s a good thing Rod is MIA from picking me up so I get to catch up with you guys.
Boy, DO I HEAR YOU!!!
You are so right - there is always one or two of these around.
Hey, Rod is here - I’m going to come back and finish my thoughts k?
See you in a bit.
Totally get you on this one . . . the girls in my office always talk about what they eat and talk about calories, etc. but none of them really diet either. And they can’t understand why I don’t want to get lunch with them from some high calorie/high fat take out place every day. Uhg . . . good luck with those girls . . . they make me crazy too.
Don’t worry about not feeling the loss, you are doing great! Keep it up!!
Hey girl!!! I truly hope you’ve lost when you get on the scale
It does sound to me like you’re not eating enough calories and are maybe a bit too consistent with the 1300 cals a day. Shake it up a bit hun…keep your body guessing 
Good Luck!!!
It will all add up in the end, trust me… I know the feeling very well, in fact I think I’ve blogged of similar frustration… Funny how the weight loss works-huh? I am just as confused and feel just the same about the scale and I too have to avoid it most of the time… But like I said, somehow, in someway the hard work and eatig right does add up to something in the end, even if not right away!
Told you I would be back.
Ok, so as I was saying, I know about these type of people ohhh so well. They annoy me too. I’ve learned long ago not to dish out advice unless asked. Makes for an awkward situation.
The scale and weight loss, it’s a mysterious world to me too. Most of the time I want to beat the crap out of it. But now I use it as a motivator to keep going. I actually like giving it the cold shoulder except for that one weigh in for the WC team.
I am so happy to hear you are back on 85%. You have all the knowledge and tools to do this.
I know you are liking the gym which is a great thing. Have you started any classes?
I think you’re great. Keep going Dawn! You’ll be a size 9 in no time girl!
I hear you too, but you know what you are doing and you are doing it right, don’t worry about them, don’t stress. They either don’t know any better or don’t care and either way, you will be the healthy one for sure! Kill ‘em with kindness, educate them politely when they make their little faces or comments.
I am overeducated on this too, boy am I. Done this too many times, I’m ashamed to say, but hey. I have the tools, I have the will, I won’t quit until the FORMER fat lady sings!!!!
Take good care, flip off your scale and enjoy life, get healthy, be you!
Jen
Go get’em girl. I can understand your frustrations. Except with me its not the girls at work, its my sister. She was looking at me with disbelief in her eyes on some of the stuff I was getting-the sizes…well guess what sugar..she can bite my ass. She is one of those that’s lost 15 lbs in 2 weeks with no effort, eating candy..blah blah blah..yet stays the same size for years now..you get the idea. Lol Ok, sorry..this fired off my own personal little rant! lol.
Your doing good girl, and you dont need some lifetime dieter-that shows nothing in results-telling how you should be doing this.
Hang tough girl…keep rocking it!
Love Debbie
Most enjoyable blog! Darn physics, I think I have reached a point of equilibrium and need to add some more reactant to my mix to get things moving…although that is more chemistry!
Thank you everyone…Have a great weekend…
Ahhhhhhh, but so much better to be frustrated, than to sit on our a$$es and do absolutely nothing, right?
Keep at it Dawn. You’re a huge inspiration to me and have shown me what NOT giving up in exaspiration can do for me. Thanks.
Hugggggggggggggggggs,
Shan
I so hear ya! Very frustrating! The important thing is that you ARE doing this for yourself and you are not giving up. You ARE eating healthy and exercising and that is what matters. The weight will come off. Keep on keeping on!