Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

“I’ll be forever blue
that you give me no reason
you know you’re making me work so hard” ~Erasure 

I am in love. 

Absolutely, head over heals, in love… 

For the first time in years… 

Perhaps, forever. 

I have found my missing half… 

I can’t get him off my mind. 

I think about him constantly. Anticipating our next adventure. Wondering what he will have in store for me.  

I have not felt this kind of excitement in so long that it’s hard for me to even grasp. Truly. 

I have felt so helpless for most of 2007 and all of 2008. Didn’t think I would ever find my soul mate. But for reasons still unknown to me. 

I have found THE ONE… 

And he is GYM…Or more specifically. THE Gym. 

I know. I know. You are tired of hearing about it, but I just can’t help it. 

I am in love with my gym. 

I can not believe that just seven weeks ago, I posted in one of the forums how scared I was to try a new gym. I ALMOST didn’t do it. 

DAMN IT. I am soooo glad I faced that fear head on… 

I walk through my gym now like I belong…Even if I don’t look like I do.  

True. It’s full to brimming of the pretty boys and gals… 

True, I am PROBABLY one of the bigger gals that go there. 

But surprisingly, I simply don’t care. 

Every day I go.  

Every day I work HARD. I sweat.  

Every day I try a new piece of equipment or expand my time on a newer piece. 

They even have a “Women’s Only” gym upstairs… 

I went once and never returned. It was boring. Felt like they were hiding us away. I wanted to be amongst the pretty people…You know why? 

Because I belong there too… 

I too am a pretty person… 

I have been working out for over five years now. Pretty faithfully I might add. And yes, it did help me lose my weight. But I was sooo limited in my choices at my old gym. I had no idea. 

Now I have so many choices I literally can’t wait to get to the gym every night… 

It’s such a strange feeling. 

I have never minded working out, but have never loved it either. 

Now, I can almost say I enjoy it. Now, I feel horribly guilty and somewhat depressed if I cant get there. I am so very excited. 

I am soooo ready to make this my year… 

I have stated it on the forums, and I will state it here. 

My motto for 2009 is this:

 ROCKIN MYSELF TO A SIZE 9 IN 2009!!! WOOT!!! 

Buddies…I am telling you…YOU CAN DO THIS. WE CAN DO THIS. 

I was stalled for a long time for many reasons… 

But I KEPT trying… 

Keep trying buddies. DON’T EVER GIVE UP. EVER. 

And TRY NEW THINGS. 

Eventually, it will work…We can achieve these goals we have all set… 

Its only the second week of January…We have the WHOLE year ahead of us to change our lives!!!!