You CAN control ONE thing in your life…
When chaos flows around you. And you feel adrift…
Theres not a whole lot you can do…
There are sooooooooooooo many things in this world beyond our control…We know this. Economics right now SUCKS…I dont know anyone currently rolling in the dough. Even those who “Planned”. Jobs come and go, not always by our choice. Relationships come and go. Health. Illness. Death…
Uncontrollables…
Currently, I feel VERY chaotic…
Really, I have felt that way for a lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time. I thought moving out of state would bring me PEACE…Help me to recover and rediscover MYSELF…
Instead, I WILLING threw myself into MORE chaos…
Silly girl…
I started a new job this week. And its a doooooozy…And I hate it…So far…But I have to work…
So nothing seems to be going well AROUND me…
With the exception of one thing…
My weight loss efforts…
This is ONE thing that I have COMPLETE control over…
You can blame genetics. Mom. Dad. Great Grandma Jean. You can blame McDonalds. You can blame your sore leg. You can blame your dog.
But really, YOU can control what goes IN your body. And what you DO with that body. Period.
Dont get me wrong. I understand the excuses. I have made them a thousand times myself. But I have NEVER blamed anyone else for my fat, but me. I got me here. I will get me outta here.
So, for some reason…
Admist all this personal chaos…
I have found ONE thing to cling too.
I take that back…TWO THINGS.
My gym. And my food journal.
And I am doing WELL.
Better than I have done in at least four months.
Every day has been 1300 calories or less. I am hitting the gym 6 days a week, and working HARD. No more half assed work outs. I am logging EVERY thing I eat. And every thing I do at the gym.
This is the MOST consistent I have been in MONTHS.
Have I lost weight?
I have no freakin clue. I refuse to weigh in until I have been back on track for a few more weeks. For the scale makes me INSANE, and ALWAYS makes me want to give up. So I took it out of the equation.
I am doing what I need to be doing, and I know EVENTUALLY the scale will agree…
But I feel GREAT.
Even if I havent lost ANYTHING I feel great.
Proud of mysle for sticking to this again.
Envisioning myself in my size 9’s next fall.
I can see them. Really. I know I can do this. I know this is my year.
Its gonna take a while. One pound at a time. But I can do it. And you can TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am sorry you hate your new job. Not that this changes your current situation, but the best time to look for another one is when you have one… Way to go on hitting the gym and holding those calories down. Size nines here YOU come
Dawn, you had me waiting forever for an update.
HAPPY you got your workout in but sorry you don’t like your job.
HANG IN THERE BUDDY!
You are so right!! Thanks for the reminder.
Hope things get better with the job
I feel the same way! I can’t control so much of the craziness in my life, and it makes me work even harder on what I can: what I eat, how I move my body. I have total control over what goes into my mouth and whether I make it a priority to exercise.
I hope things get better with your job!
well seems life is chaotic everywhere and this damn economy literally has my life in a whirls spin and thanking god everyday for the job i have today, but i think turning forty and being the heaviest in mylife and having a mini melt down in the middle of a dept store finally woke me up,, i got me here i will get me out of here , i honestly can tell you i literally got mad as hell to make me move, its been three days i been real and consistent , but i feel some inner soul change this time for my innerself is talking to me and time for a change well keep your spirits up and good luck in all walks of life. at least your not stressing about weight this time
I’m so proud of you!
Amen sister bear!! For breakfast this morning, I had a bowl of tortilla chips and I was about to just say F— it and read your blog!! ONE pound at a time, one day at a time…no pressure, just putting one foot infront of the other, DOING what needs to be done. Some days we’ll do it 100% other days, like yesterday for me, missing the mark completely, BUT above ALL else, DOING and NEVER giving up.
I like what I am reading girl, I really do. I am also very happy that you have found a job, in these hard economic times, that’s a blessing in and of itself!!
Sorry about your job, that sucks. And I have felt that way too, loss of control. But I do love that we can control what we do with our bodies, right on!
Wow, thanks for your blog! I have been reading for a little while and am amazed how similar your ups and downs are to mine. It has been comforting and inspirational to read. Cheers!