Fraidy Kat! Fraidy Kat!
Hello buddies!!!
Well, Monday was the grand Re-luanch of my ship…The ship being myself…
I asked Brian to even crack me over the head with a bottle of champaign to make it all official, but he said no…I know not why!?!?! LOL…
First three days were a bit half hearted I confess…
But I kept saying “Fake it till you make it”…I knew eventually that going through the motions would eventually just click…
Here I am on day four, and finally starting to get excited again…
I ended the first few days around 1400 calories. This is about 100 calories more than I want…So I have some tweaking to do…
I also havent been to the gym yet…I have definitely exercised. In the form of walking, and working, and unpacking. But nothing structured…
Now…Do you want to hear a secret?
Do you know why I havent yet been to the gym??
Its because yours truly is SCARED. Yep. I am scared to go to the gym…
Ridiculous, no?????
You see, its a new gym. Its a small, new gym, that is associated with my apartment, but is at a different complex. So I have to drive to it. Its about a mile a way.
My old gym was right in my neigborhood, and I went to it faithfully for over four years. I was comfortable there.
This one is NEW. OMG…And I am afraid.
I admit it.
Soooo…Today…I am going to FORCE myself out of this house and to that gym…
Its sounds simple, I know, but as most of us know who give into fear from time to time, its getting there thats half the battle!!!
On another note, I finally unpacked all my clothes yesterday, and boy o boy was I depressed! Buddies…I have lots o clothes!!! WHEW…
Sadly, MOST of them currently do not fit!!!! UGH O RAMA!!!
They are nice, new, size 14s mostly…I bought them over a year and a half ago when I was firmly at 185 and fit well into 14s…Currently I am snug as a bug in a rug in my 16s…
Call me a stuffed sausage if you will!!!
I was soooo tempted to throw them all out yesterday…
But then, that would have meant giving up on getting back there. And, well, I am not ready to call it quits just yet…
I know, if I work hard, I can easily get into them within the next two to three months…
I think of my buddy Jo and how she has lost over 15 pounds in two months, and she keeps me going…I know in 15 pounds I could fit into them again…
So today I awoke with some new motivation…I want to fit into all my clothes again…They are soooo cute!!!
I am finally starting to get excited again about my weight loss journey. And excitement is key…
Today, I am also waiting for an important phone call…Yesterday, I adopted a dog from the local shelter…
I have been horribly home sick and missing the two dogs I left behind with my ex husband. My babbies…
So I picked me out a dog. She was on death row, actually, and a week beyond her kill date…They kept her because they just knew she was adoptable…I think she was just waiting for me!
She is a 11 month old Collie Mix…
She is shy and timid…
I can not wait to go get her…She has no name yet, and we are currently running through the list…
I cant wait to have yet another reason to get up in the morning and get out and about…Anyone who has ever owned a puppy in an apartment knows, there will be no laying in bed now!!! LOL…
Good luck to all my buddies today…
Remember, the number of mistakes we make do not matter, its how we learn from them that does!!!
I know about being afraid in new surroundings. I was the same way about going to church. I didn’t know anyone, there were so many to choose from, I didn’t know if I’d be welcome, it’s a small town (maybe they are ‘clique-ish’, is that even a word?) I forced myself to pick one, go and the sermon, believe it or not…was ‘fake it til you make it’ FAITH! ie, we don’t go to church because we HAVE faith, we go because we NEED it. Same thing applies to the gym, don’t go because you’re already fit, etc. Happy to hear about your new dog, she will get you moving, and love you forever. (whether you work out or not…)
Dawnie, I can relate to that scared feeling of going to the gym. Me, go figure right? But that’s how I was. I had a gym in my complex but felt too scared to use it. It was only after walking for 8 months that I started using the home gym and renewed my membership with 24hrs. The first 3 years I had a membership I used it once. Now they can’t get rid of me.
Since this is a apt gym, chances are the gym is less crowded during certain hours of the day.
Please don’t throw any clothes away. When I got back up to an 11, I packed all my smalls and mediums in a suitcase wondering if it was the last time I get to wear them. Welll….wearing them now. So, keep them - you will fit in them soon.
Happy for you and the dog!
Stay with it Dawn! A month and a half ago I was finally able to wear 3 pair of pants I hadn’t worn in 2years… I’m currently wearing a pair as I write this. It feels sooooo good to know I accomplished losing 2 sizes in 3 mmonths time. I have been at a stand still for a month because of some issues at home but I back and at it again. I hope to lose another 10 by the end of the year. I know I can if I set my mind and feet to it. ;)You can too!
Thank you ladies!! You are all awesome…
I am GOING to do this…I MUST do this…
Its just a gym for god sake!! LOL…
And dont worry, I am keeping the clothes, and HOPEFULLY by Spring, I will be blogging about how LOOSE they all are!!!
WOO HOO!!!
Dawn I can really relate to your fear as well.
When I took the first step starting water aerobics I was sooooo scared and it was so hard.
I wanted to do it so badly, like I think you do with the gym, but yet I was so nervous.
When I finally took the step and just did it I was so happy and relieved that I did.
Now it’s my favorite form of exercise and I look forward to it and hate it when I have to miss.
I am so glad that I took that step and now I can’t imagine not doing it.
You’ll be so proud of yourself for taking that step.
It’s one more thing you need to do for you and you deserve that.
I like your quote about making mistakes.
Here’s another :
“A person who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.”
– Albert Einstein
Good luck
I cant wait to hear about it and also to hear about how great you look and feel in your size 14s again.
Lori
As you are about to cross the threshold into the new gym, just picture yourself more toned and wearing those nice clothes in a few months!!
Your dog sounds sweet!!
And I know you are scared, but I can feel your excitement too. I know you can do it, you did it before and you know what to do. Looking forward to hearing about it!
If it’s just a mile to the gym, can you walk there instead of driving? Walking is like taking a natural antidepressant and you might arrive at the gym with a smile on your face.
Hi moonbeam! I would LOOOOVE to walk to it, unfortunately, I have to cross a major freeway to do so!
So no, driving is a must for now…Maybe I can get brave and play a giant game of frogger in the future, but for now, I will drive!
LOL!! I love your comment to Tatiana—frogger…that’s pretty darn funny!! Ok….now, first and foremost—THANK YOU. You are one of the reasons why I shook myself out of my funk!! Do you know how much it motivates me to know that I am indirectly helping you? Do you know you stroke my ego in the best way possible? You see Dawn, one of the things I MOST pride myself on is being a good friend. I am the friend you call at 2 o’clock in the morning to come to your rescue, no matter where you are or what kind of trouble you’re in…so for you to tell me that I am lighting your path, MY GOD, you have NO IDEA how that made me feel—-I blogged about it, I have a sense of responsibility not only to myself, but most importantly, to you!! THANK YOU!!
Also….I am super thrilled for your excitement on your weight loss and please, whatever you do, don’t get rid of those 14’s. I know for me, fitting into my new “old” 14s was one of the most rewarding experiences on this journey!! So no throwing or donating those 14s, k?
And as soon as you get your puppy, you have to take pictures and share—because I LOOOOOOOOOVE dogs….I could so easily be the dog lady!! I would looooooove to have a million of them and hug them and squeeze them and kiss them all the time!! I l-l-l-l-ooooooove puppies!!
Ok…excitement galore here!! Let’s do this.
Before I leave I want to know one thing—how did it go at your new gym?
So glad your getting a PUP
I hope it all goes smoothly for you.
And I cant blame you for being scared to go to a new gym…heck any gym. That doesnt come easy for me. Id exercise in my closet if I could fit
I am so glad to hear that you got a dog! I for one KNOW that we simply cannot live without them! She will be your ever present partner in the days to come.
I have never, ever, ever lived without at least one dog in my life. I do not understand people who don’t love em’.
I too am needing to get back on track with things because I’ve been sick and out of the loop. I’ve got 30 lbs to lose in two months now!!! OMG what a scary thought.
I don’t blame you being afraid to go to a new gym. In the past I’ve always feared new things…whatever they were, all that mattered was the unknown. I fear the unknown. But over this last year I have come to learn how to control that fear and rather than avoid my fears now, I confront them head on. I urge you to do the same. There is something so freeing and motivating in doing so!
Take care and best of luck to you and your new doggie!!!
Hey there!
I have to say your before and after pictures are pure inspiration and motivation! Soooo awesome!I hope you are enjoying your new pup now and hopefully conquered that fear of that new gym, if not I am sure that pup will get you movin’ and groovin’!
Peace!
Leah?
Hey there!
I have to say your before and after pictures are pure inspiration and motivation! Soooo awesome!I hope you are enjoying your new pup now and hopefully conquered that fear of that new gym, if not I am sure that pup will get you movin’ and groovin’!
Peace!
Leah?
Hey there!
I have to say your before and after pictures are pure inspiration and motivation! Soooo awesome!I hope you are enjoying your new pup now and hopefully conquered that fear of that new gym, if not I am sure that pup will get you movin’ and groovin’!
Peace!
Leah?