My heart’s like an open book for the whole world to read…
Sometimes nothin…Keeps me together at the seams…”
Home sweet home. Motley Crue.Exactly how I am feeling…The song just keeps running through my brain…
Whew…
Well, friends, I arrived in Orlando, from Ohio mid day on Monday. After a 19 hour drive. WOW. So very exhausted that we went to sleep at six p.m.!!! WOW…
So, I am on day five technically, of my new home…And boy, has it been exciting, sad, busy, exhausting, etc…
First, I arrived with only a few clothes. The rest of my stuff is arriving by a moving Pod on Monday. So I am kind of lost without my stuff…
Second, my apartment is incredibly cute, however, it is soooo different from the condo that I lived in for ten years. I am experiencing some SERIOUS home sickness.
Doubts, second thoughts…The whole WHAT HAVE I DONE scenerio…
I am told that this is fairly common when a change of this nature takes place. And that it will pass in time as I get acclamated to my new surroundings…God, I hope so.
For one minute I feel great, excited and happy, and the next minute I burst into tears…
Yesterday it was when I saw a dog!!
A DOG people. I saw one in the parking lot and immediately burst into tears…I couldnt help it. I went from 36 years old to 8 years old in a heartbeat. I just miss my doggies I had to leave behind…And seeing a dog makes me feel sad and lonely…
Brian has been wonderful. Sweet. Looking at me quite helpless like trying to figure out what to do with me…I told him to just let me be…Its kinda a girl thing, I think…Maybe its just a Dawn thing…
All I know is that my senses are on overload…My brain on overdrive…
But I am trying to deal with it minute by minute.
Today I got out by myself and drove. I got to point A just fine…But got lost coming home!! I panicked for a second, then took a deep breath and just drove in the direction I knew was right…I found my way back home, and discovered a new shopping area in the process…I guess this is how I will learn…
Its just been soooo long since I have had to learn a new city…I took that for granted for sure!
I have had two job interviews. Both went okay. One went better than okay. I have two more in teh works. All four in my field of Human Resources…So hopefully I can secure a job within the next few weeks. This will help me I know…
So, to end on some positive notes…The weather here is GORGEOUS and I have been running running running for four days…Even Thanksgiving was no big deal. Ate a normal sized meal, and did not feel stuffed or miserable.
I have a 24 hour fitness center.
I live RIGHT across the street from Sea World, so I can walk around there.
I have a nice neighborhood to walk in. And I have gone grocery shopping.
So starting Monday, I am BACK IN THE GAME. Back to food logging and exercising.
I am actually VERY VERY excited about this. I miss my routine…Ready to drop 40 pounds in the next six months. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS…
Thanks to all of you for your patience!!!!
Minute by minute is good
Baby steps work in so many areas of our lives and I believe this would be another. Driving and getting lost is how I learn areas too…as long as I dont get too far from a bathroom…I always have to PANIC pee, heehee.
How cool that Sea World is across the street. I got to go when I was about 13 (30 years ago-WOW) and it still tops as one of my favorite places.
Take your time, cry when it comes and ENJOY it all
You are doing a great job LIVING your life. Oh sure, you’ll experience a little ‘buyer’s remorse’ from time to time. It happens….even when we think we’ve got it all, bam. Out of nowhere, like the dog episode. But soon it will be your new ‘familiar’ and you will wonder how you ever lived any other way. Love your life, it’s the only one you’ve got.
WELCOME HOME DAWNIE!
I’m so happy to hear the move went well and you are in your new home! Yah Dawnie! I would find it strange if you didn’t feel homesick.
Yep, like you said, take it minute by minute, second by second, do your best and you’ll get through it with flying colors.
I’m excited for you now that you have a 24 hr fitness center you can use anytime you want. I hope you take complete advantage of it girl.
Have fun and enjoy your new home girl!
Dawnie, I’ve been away from home for 4 months now and I still CANNOT walk by a Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory without busting into tears—just writing about it gives way to the waterworks! Why RMCF you ask? Well, my mom LOVES candy apples and rock candy so whenever I happened to walk-by any RMCF store I would never fail to go in and buy both things and take them home to mom….it was an automatic thing….even if I didn’t have a reason to go to my parents’ that day, I would make the trip to deliver her candy apple and rock candy!! I lived 20 minutes from home and I would still make the drive!! So what you are experiencing is TOTALLY NORMAL!! I too get incredibly homesick when I see a dog, specially black dogs and/or little dogs!! It just breaks my heart because I can’t hug or play with my beloved babies! Again, it’s normal…..some days you will feel on top of the world and THRILLED to pieces for having left it all behind and some days, you’re going to be so homesick you’ll want to crawl in a hole and die, BUT I promise you Dawnie, it gets better with each passing day!! Once you start working and get into a routine, you’ll be recharged and refocused AND you will soar!! So hang in there because as Frank Sinatra sang, “THE BEST IS YET TO COME.”
Dawnie, I’ve been away from home for 4 months now and I still CANNOT walk by a Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory without busting into tears—just writing about it gives way to the waterworks! Why RMCF you ask? Well, my mom LOVES candy apples and rock candy so whenever I happened to walk-by any RMCF store I would never fail to go in and buy both things and take them home to mom….it was an automatic thing….even if I didn’t have a reason to go to my parents’ that day, I would make the trip to deliver her candy apple and rock candy!! So what you are experiencing is TOTALLY NORMAL!! I too get incredibly homesick when I see a dog, specially black dogs and/or little dogs!! It just breaks my heart because I can’t hug or play with my beloved babies! Again, it’s normal…..some days you will feel on top of the world and THRILLED to pieces for having left it all behind and some days, you’re going to be so homesick you’ll want to crawl in a hole and die, BUT I promise you Dawnie, it gets better with each passing day!! Once you start working and get into a routine, you’ll be recharged and refocused AND you will soar!! So hang in there because as Frank Sinatra sang, “THE BEST IS YET TO COME.”
Girl I am so excited for you! I know you will get settled in no time! I know exactly what you mean as I’ve made several moves like that in my small 26 yrs on this planet. (((hugs))) Good luck in the job hunting!!
I think it all sounds so exciting! Congrats and I’m sure it will feel like home soon. Good luck with the job!