The big move…
Hello everyone!
I have been MIA for over a week. I apologize to you and to my Pink Ladies. I kind of pulled myself off for a two week period…But it still sucks.
I am packed and ready to go!!
This time next week, I will be writting you from sunny Florida, and NOT snowy Ohio. Thats right. I woke up to a dusting of snow this morning. UGH.
So here is the gist. I just couldnt keep up with everything while managing this move. So I willingly pulled myself off my diet, exercise, and blogging for a period of two weeks. Just until I got moved and settled. I didnt feel great about this, but, I was losing my ever loving OCD mind stressing about it all…
So, while life has been a bit calmer, overall, I do NOT feel good. I do not feel healthy OR happy. I have not been overeating per say. Just dont like the loss of control I feel now. And it has motivated me more than ever to get going. To get moved, settled and back on track IMMEDIATELY.
See. Thats the weird thing about this journey. When I am working out, and NOT losing weight, I feel ten times better about myself. Even though I am the same weight…I hate not doing anything. It makes me feel like I am saying WTH…Come on fat. Please. Come lay yourself right on my belly and my thighs. We’ve got the room!! Ugh…
So…I just wanted to check in real quickly to say I will most definitely be back FULL FORCE next week. I have a plan and I am ready to activate it.
I will have a new home. A new climate. A new support system. New goals and motivation. And god willing…A NEW JOB. (I have two interviews lined up…)
So, while I do not feel great about myself, I always try to stay upbeat and positive…YOU HAVE TO…I can not let depression settle in or I will give…
I was looking at old pics of myself this weekend. And although I am not where I was, down to 179, I am also not back where I started, 250 ish…So this is something…I am going to attempt for the first time ever to post pictures in my blog…LOL…
So you too can see that even though I may not be down to where I want to be, I am further than I was 6 years ago. And that, my friends, is something…
Above: Me and my ex husband Steve, August, 2002, I am close to 250 pounds here.
Below: Me and my now boyfriend Brian, in September of 2008. I am probably 205 here…
So yes…I am not the 179 I once was…But I will be…Soon…I will be back there..
Take care all!!!
Of I would love to have nice weather all year round. Iowa weather sucks. Although I am leaving for Cancun in 30 days for a week family vaca. Then in March the bf,myself,youngest daughter,and bf’s mom are going to CA for a week long visit to see bf’s g’ma can’t wait. Good luck get back on track you can do it sister!!!!!!!!!
You look great! Don’t stress yourself out and feel bad about taking the time off. Just go back on track after the move is done.
Dawnie! Big change!! With your strong self will, you will be back at it soon! Give your self a break for now, and just eat as healthy as you can. Hugs, Kama
Love the pic, too!
Glad to hear from you Dawnie! Good luck with the move.
BTW, you look beautiful in both pictures.
LOVE the pictures!! LOVE the attitude!! LOVE the expectations and anticipation of the move!! Your life is in a GOOD PLACE right now even if you feel a little out of control and out of sorts!! Thanks for the update!! I’ve been a “little” worried about you, not because I was worried per say, but more because I know you’re probably exhausted from all that needs to be done before such a major move!! Hang in there!! I think that’s what happened to me this Summer, I plugged out of BS, COMPLETE (even deleted my account) only to come back stronger in August!! Hang in there!! You WILL come back stronger and more determined and you WILL SUCCEED and be even lighter than your former 179!!