And so it begins…
Well Buddies…Its monday!
The start of a new week…A time for new successes and new failures…
Lets focus on the successes, shall we?
As I have blogged about often, my life is very chaotic these days…Really no different from any of yours I am sure…We all have our things we deal with…
I can say honestly, I havent handled mine well…And I have resorted to tossing my own wellness aside time and time again…And I am tired of it…
So, starting fresh, YET AGAIN, today, I am trying to stay on track…
I have the intelligence. The tools. And I KNOW I have done it before. So I just need to do it again. Simple, eh???
Today, I took a GIANT step towards my future. One that kind of freaked me out. Scared me to death. And all kind of things in between.
I put in my notice at work. The first step to my relocation to Florida by December 1st.
I have no job there. No home there. No friends. No family. No pets. NADA.
So, the urge to NOT go was very very strong this weekend. The urge to just stay here, where I have always been, in my comfort zone, was very very compelling…
I am not afraid to admit I had a major breakdown this weekend and spent most of my weekend in bed, in tears, trying to sort it out. To do what is best for Dawn…
I am sooo afraid of failing…That the urge to not even try was soooo strong…
I talked to Brian, the BF…To Steve, the Ex-husband, to one of my best friends, Jen, and they all said the same thing…
“Dawn, we know you…If you dont even try, you will be incredibly disappointed in yourself”.
And they are right…
So with a shaky hand, and tears in my eyes, I put in my notice today.
I now have four weeks to pack 36 years into a POD, and relocate myself to Florida.
Where awaits a lovely man who seems to love me even though I am fat, and mentally unstable on a GOOD day…LOL…
I have done some crazy things in my life, but this, honestly, is up there as the craziest…
BUT…
I think I gotta try it…
So with that now done, I can imerse myself in the next four weeks…Recommit myself for the 100th time to my OWN fitness and weightloss…And HOPEFULLY, both endeavors will end up successful…
So my goal for this week is very simple indeed. I am aiming for five days in a row of 100% on plan. For me, this means this:
- Journal every morsel that passes my lips
- Stay at or around 1300 calories per day
- Work out for a mininum of 1 hour per day
Its all so very simple…In writting, at least…
“The journey of a thousand miles, begins with just one step…”
So here I go…One foot in front of the other. One minute at a time…And before I know it, I will look back and be amazed at my progress…
Congrats on taking that first step, it’s definitely the hardest one. Good luck on your new endeavor!
yup one step at a time baby. You guys are adorable I just saw the new picture.
Dawnie, if anyone can do it, it is you! I think you are really making an important step! I wish you the best!
Dawnie,
I know you can do this. It is always scary to make a major change in your life. You are one of the strongest people I know (and that is saying something girl since I haven’t “seen” ya since high school) But I know the girl you were then and can see the woman you have become. You will be in my prayer more than normal these next few weeks as you prepare and ultimately make your journey to be with Brian. You know I love ya girl. I have for all these many years and if you need to talk or anything just give me a shout and I will send you my digits again. You are lucky to have such a wonderful support system with Brian, Steve and Jen at the helm. Just know we all love and support you!!!!
Dawnie, it’s been a crazy week for yours truly and I barely got to this blog—-how did you do? How was your week? Please update me and TRY (although it may seem impossible) NOT to worry. I love that your loved ones KNOW you and KNOW that if you don’t try, you will be disappointed in yourself—-no matter what happens, you will be OK. You are going to make it….you are taking the biggest leap of faith in your life—-you did it last year when you and Steve decided to part ways and look at you now. I am sure THAT decision was heart breaking, but you are a better and stronger person for it…the same will be true for this move to Florida! Those of us who know you have faith in you…you just have to have faith in yourself!! I hope last week was a great one and I hope this new week is even better!!
LUV YA!