Secrets and Revelations!
Comments(7) HELLLLOOOOO Buddies!
So sorry for my absence. WOW. What a crazy two weeks I had…
Updates: Two weeks ago, I got sick. Nasty head cold! Right on the tail end of that sickness, I threw out my back, AGAIN…This one was bad. Severe pain and imobility…Cried like a baby I did! I had blown a muscle that was pinching my Sciatic Nerve. UGH. (I am still haveing lingering effects in my leg!!)
Back problems SUCK…It affects sooo many other things in life…
Then, I was sent off to San Francisco for four days for work…I have finally calmed down a bit and am trying to get back to normal. (My normal…not the rest of the worlds!) HAH!!
Sooo. Needless to say, I had not hit the gym in TWO WEEKS. Egads! That is the longest stretch I have had in a while!!!
I went last night thinking it would suck and I would be miserable…And actually. It was not! Felt great to get back to my routine…I took it just a little easier so my back could still heal, but I still put in a good effort…
Glad to be back to it. Really!!!
Okay…
Here is my secret…I cant beleive I am announcing this to the world, but what the hell…It might help someone else…
Last night I did something I have never ever done…
I took several pictures of my body…Now…Before all of your minds go into the gutter…Please note, I was clothed in them…
I saw an episode of Oprah a few weeks back with Carson on there, where he made larger women take nude photos of them selves (How to look good naked?) and I thought it was a WONDERFUL idea. How many of us NEVER see ourselves how we are??
I have been wanting to take some CLASSY semi nude pics for awhile now, but didnt feel like I had lost enough weight…
Well. Last night a friend breifly mentioned I have been taking less photos of myself. And I agreed…So I went home, got the camera, and started snapping…
All, ummm, female parts, remained covered, but I did take pictures of my belly…And legs…Etc…
Now. I expected to hate them all…
WOW…What a suprise…
When I downloaded them and looked at them on my computer…You know what?? They werent horrible! A supermodel I am not, but you know what?? It was okay…
There was my belly…Not flat…A few stretch marks…(And I have never even had children!) but it was my belly…And it is 60 pounds smaller…
There were my legs…Yep…Still a bit flabby at top, but heck, there was some lose skin too, from where they used to be huge!!
My arms…
My legs…
Even my chest…
All vast improvements over what was there four years ago…
I thought I would be embarrassed. I thought I would be mortified…
And actually, I found myself feeling proud of how far I have come…And I felt pretty…
So I am a larger girl. I most likely always will be…And I think I am finally accepting that…
I am cute.
I am sexy.
I am me.
And from the outside, looking on, there are worse things I could be…
Have a great day all…Now go home and take some pics of yourself…You just might realize how beautiful you are!!!
