Still climbing that hill!!!
Hello buddies…I am still here!!!
Honest!!
Work has been insanely busy and I swear if I dont die from a heart attack by years end I will be amazed…Next week is my 6 month anniversary there…CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT…And I have had only TWO…Count them…ONE. TWO. Days off since I started…
I am in DIER need of a vacation…So I am taking one soon…
The weight loss battle continues…I am working out in the mornings now before work, because I am too tired at night and thats working out well…But geesh…Re-losing this weight SUCKS…It is sloooooow going buddies…FOR SURE…I want to give up more often then not, but I keep going…Keep trudging along. I feel like Charlie Brown a lot though…GOOD GRIEF…
For all you newbies out there, take it from me, I have been around the block a time or two…If you lose the weight…KEEP IT OFF, because regaining some and then trying to re-lose it sucks…BIG TIME…UGH…
I have lost 6 of the 15 I had regained…But damn…I am sooooo mad at myself for gaining that 15…Grrrrrrrrrr…
On a somewhat sad and baffling note, I got in a terrible fight with my mother last week…UGH…Mothers…She confronted me in the middle of a football party I was having…Said she no longer liked me, and blamed it all on my weight loss!!!!!! She said she liked me better, fatter!!!! WTH???? Ugh…Said I was nicer fatter…???????????????????
Really, she is upset about Steve and I…And she was speaking about things she knows nothing about…She stomped out of my house and I ran upstairs crying…Nice, huh???
Anyway…I still havent talked to her. I will…I will…I just have to find the words to say what I want to say, and the patience to let her say what she needs to say…
As I have repeatedly said, weight loss DOES change you…So does LIFE…I sometimes think my mother still looks at me as a 16/18 year old snotty nosed teenager…
She fails to see the woman I have become…We have much work to do, she and I, on our relationship…
On the marriage front, Steve and I are moving forward with our dissolution, and actually, things are going well. He and I have had some really good conversations of late…He is helping me find an apartment and I hope to be out on my own by the first of the year…
We are doing our best to remain good friends. Best friends even, which is really freaking out a lot of people…But, well, he and I have always been an odd couple, so we figure we will continue to be so!!!
Well, thats all for me…Hope you are all doing well…
These holiday seasons are killers…So heres hoping we all make it through thinner!!!
Take care-
Dawn
I hope things get worked out between you and your mom. I’m glad that you are going to talk to her. Too many people would have said forget it. Good job!! I think it’s great that you and your husband will remain good friends. Good job on losing the 6 pounds!! You can do it. Good luck on everything!
Wow, seems like you have a lot on your plate. But hang in there. Keep on keeping on, sometimes life has a way of slowing us down when we are trying to lose weight or reach a goal. Just remember you are doing this for you! Remember why you want what you want and keep reaching for it.
WOW have you been there 6 mos. already?
Geez busy busy busy. Sounds like you really are in need of a vacation.
I hope you are enjoying the work though.
You are well on your way to losing the weight you gained back. Even though it sucks to have to do it at least you are doing it. Getting up early and working out - GOOD FOR YOU!!!
Why are our relationships with our mothers so tough? Man, wish I knew.
You know your mom wasn’t happier having you fat.
You do know that Dawn.
Sounds like she’s having a hard time dealing with your relationship with Steve changing and that you are handling it better than she is.
From everything that I know about it you are handling it so maturely.
Dealing with it all and sorting through things and talking it out with Steve and you should be really proud of that. Keeping that respect for one another I think is huge.
I don’t know too many people that could say the same thing when they had marital problems to deal with.
No matter how things turn out in the end you will know that you worked very hard to do what was best and to make things work.
Keep up the great work Dawn
and good luck with mom
Hugs
Lori
Oh Dawn!!
I didn’t realize how much your life had changed!!!
I’m sure you’ll do the right thing all around. I’ve always looked at major changes weather I believe they’re positive or negative to be a “new beginning”. I’ve had 3 in my life and I thank God that I experienced every one of them. I”m thinking of you darlin!!
Tammy
Hey Dawn! Hope you get things worked out with your mom, Mine is 83 and still thinks of me as a kid, sometimes! But it does get better. Seems you and Steve have come to a peaceful place, very happy for you. Hang in there, the wieght will come off, just stay persistent! Love ya!
Reloosing does suck! I’ve been battling the same few lbs on and off for a year. Grrrr is right!! Well, things are moving as they should but you do need a vacay. Block off the time and go and most importantly, be unreachable!!!
Good luck with the losing the regain, it’s hard stuff. My two cents with your mom issue. You don’t have to give mom’s words a life but keep it in the back of your mind. My mother has passed but I used to blow off her remarks and say she didn’t know the whole story when in reality, people around us sometimes see things that we can’t. In this case, I think you had a decent marriage and alot of people know how hard that is to get. There are alot of women out there that are searching for what you had. However, You feel you lost out on something and now you have all these opportunities that seem better than what you had. Moms’ sometimes know they aren’t better, just different and not always for the best. So she shouldn’t have said those things but she loves you and it’s hard to watch people make moves in their lives without worrying about them. I’ve read your blogs for over a year now and you have changed. You’re growing. You can’t not grow with the changes that you’ve had in your life.I wish you all the luck in your search for happiness. I’m sure your mom just loves that you were safe and now things are uncertain. It’s a mom thing.
Glad to hear from you. I am sorry you and mom are having issues…I can clearly understand why she would be upset over you & Steve’s break-up. It saddens me too, as I am sure it saddens a lot of people who love and care about both of you…BUT, like you said, you are a woman and only YOU and STEVE know what is best for each of you. I am very pleased to learn that you guys are staying friends because you have always loved eachother so…you’re so right–WL changes you, but so does LIFE. Hang in there kiddo…I’m happy to know that you’re more grounded…seems like things are falling into place for you and this thrills me to pieces ’cause you know I got nothing but love for you girl!
OMG girl, only 2 days off in 6 months??? I sincerely hope you get some time off soon, that is just too much!
I am very glad to hear that things are going so amicably between you and Steve. It’s always sad to see a marriage dissolve, but it is nice when the spouses can remain good friends. So rare! My parents were the same way when they divorced when I was a teenager. It was odd, but very nice too.
I hope that things improve with your mom soon!
Relosing! What a headache. I’ve done too much of that.
Make ammends with your mother. Mine has been gone for almost 10 years now (she died in a car accident and we buried her the day before Christmas Eve)and seldom a day goes by that I don’t wish I’d let little things go. Mothers may not be perfect, but they’re gone much too soon.