Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

Happy Friday buddies…

Thank you to those of you who commented on my “anniversary” blog or emailed me privately. I do appreciate it.

Monday was pretty tough…I am sure you ladies know what I mean, but I had one of those good, deep, soul drenching cries…The ones that make you think you cant possibly have any more fluid in your body…

Seriously, I think I went through a box of Kleenex…I think I cried for two hours straight…Poor Steve…He was soooo worried about me…The funny thing is…I wasnt so much upset, as I think I just needed to cry!!! Honest…

I dont even think I was crying just for him…I kind of was just crying for the rotten stinking year we have had…

But, it all ended up rather well. Steve and I had a very very long talk and I was able to tell him some honest truths about some thoughts and feelings I have had this year…

I was finally able to give him a full truthful version of my feelings for a third party in my life.(Yes, buddies…The root of some of my marital troubles…I had feelings for another person. Very strong. Very real. And very much to no avail…)

I did, indeed, suffer from a broken heart…And since then, I have been unable to love anyone…Not even myself…This has been the very heart of my descent into the most fascinating, chaotic, and turbulent year of my life…

And why I thought he didnt know is beyond me…Because he did…But he appreciated me telling him, and honestly, I felt better telling him…Felt like if we are going to have a fresh start, we can now have it…He shared some things with me too, and it was nice…

We are putting the marriage of Steve and Dawn on hold  for now and are going to focus on our friendship…And this makes my heart glad…

Anyway…The rest of the week went better…But it was busy, so I only worked out three nights…For all of a sudden I find myself with a pretty full social calendar!!! LOL!!!! I went to the movies Thursday with my friend Dave and we saw 30 days of night…Silly movie really…But it was fun…And…I resisted the butter popcorn he repeatedly shoved in my face!!! UGH…Damn him…He is SUPPOSED to be my weight loss buddy…I think he failed the screening process!!! HAH!!!

Anyway, I had my weigh in today…Down just one pound this week. But I am actually happy…For I thought I might have gained or stayed the same. So I will embrace my pathetic one pound and rejoice!!!! I am going down, and thats all that really matters…

Plus, I am truly mentally there again, and that makes such a HUGE difference in how you handle the scale…

HOWEVER. I will say this…One other girl in my challenge lost 7 pounds this week!!! SEVEN…She lost FIVE last week…AMAZING…I was a bit discouraged at first, so I asked her how she is doing it…Well…She is eating very little…HEALTHY, but very very little…

So…I am happy for her…But its just not for me. That kind of diet…Sure I could get quick results…But I dont want them. I want an eating plan that I truly, sincerely, can do for the rest of my life…Because i will NEED to do this the rest of my life..

And denying myself a lot of things just spells disastor for me. I can deny myself certain things for a good cause, but darn it, I am NOT going to eat celery and carrots all day EVERY day!!!! I would get horribly crabby!!!

Anyway, I am happy with my plan for now…For my life and my weight loss…Cant wait to get this regain gone and hit the fresh poundage!!!!

Hope you all have a great weekend!!

Thanks for stopping by!!!