Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

Hello buddies! Sorry I was gone a few days. We took a much needed little mini vacation to celebrate my brother in law’s 40th birthday…

Whew…It was a trip, let me tell you…Three days of drinking…I just cant keep up like that…And I was the YOUNGEST one in the group of 22!!! I kid you not, they ALL out partied me…Sad, eh???

Anyway…I am back…

I actually kept my eating in line and Steve and I walked EVERY DAY all day…

So feeling good all and all…Back to working out daily as well…

I still cant seem to do my food journal like I was. Not sure why. I really think I am just completely burned out on it, yet, I dont want to let it go…(Yes…Its my OCD personality!) So I carry it around with me and write half heartedly in it…

I am also still struggling with work…Or I should say taking a break from work…I work through my lunch four days a week now, and cram a lunch down my throat even less frequently. Today I had a bag of popcorn for both my breakfast and lunch…

This is NOT good…

I really am just soooo busy…I feel I have no time…Although, I probably do…

I am also drinking more coffee then ever before…I think its our damn fancy coffee maker at work…Its very spiffy you see and its free too, so I can make 12 different flavors of gourmet coffee anytime I want…

Now…It doesnt have a TON of calories because I use splenda and all, but I also do love my creamer…And I have of course increased my caffeine intake…

So I have picked up a few nasty new habits I need to shake…

I swear, if its not one thing, it sure is another…

I cant ever seem to get my shit completely together, you know?

Anyway, I am still here…Still trying…Still breathing…Still fighting…

Someday I shall have it all figured out…And most likely that will be the day that God says my number is up!!

Oh well…

Take care buddies…I will check in later this week with you all…

That’s right buddies…I am single again!!! TEMPORARILY!!! 

Had you all worried, eh?? HAH! The husband is gone on his annual salmon fishing expedition…For three days I have my whole house to myself and I am as free as a bird!!! WOO HOO!! 

I have already gotten two drunken phone calls from him…He is with his best childhood friend and his brother in law…They all grew up together, of course, so they have this whole male bonding thing going on… I really don’t think there is much fishing going on at all, to be honest…I think the poor captain does MOST of the work…While the husband and his buddies kick back and drink cheap beer and reminisce… 

Still, it was somewhat amusing to get a phone call this morning at 5:30 a.m. from him saying “Dawnie! I caught my first fish! Oh, and I think I won a bunch of money last night!” You think???? You don’t remember??? Nope…He does not remember… 

Did I neglect to mention they are also staying at a casino??? Drunken men at a casino…Should be interesting… He is having some much deserved fun, and truly, that is all that matters… 

Now… Me…I am loving the single life…Got up on Sunday, did WHATEVER I wanted WHENEVER I wanted…It was GREAT…No one but me to clean up after…Ahhhh…Nice!!!!  So, I went to the doctors this morning for a follow up. Everything is going well but I told her how last week I felt hungry all the time and I thought I had a worm…She said that my medication DOES make me crave carbs… 

Hellloooooo!?!?!?! Couldn’t she have told me that up front??? Geesh. I could have prepared…No wonder I was gnawing on the cupboards…At least it wasn’t in my head! Gotta enough stuff in this head…Don’t need that too! Went shopping this weekend…Bought some cute new end of summer clearance clothes…They all fit, but not WELL, if you know what I mean…So I am using them as my visual stimulator…Gonna try them on once a week for the next month to gage my progress…I hope by summers end they fit great or God willing, they may be LOOSE!! 

I feel rejuvenated, once again, this week…Since the husband is gone I am going to work out longer every night this week…We have a giant birthday bash to attend up at a resort next weekend, and I want to look my best in my swimsuit…Very very excited…  Feel extremely motivated this week again now that my mood has stabilized and my medication has stabilized… That’s it for me! Have a healthy, happy week all!!! 

Love-Dawn

HELLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO All my lovely buddies! 

How in the hell are you all anyways???

By the way, were in the heck IS everyone??? There are a TON of MIA buddies…

Yeah, I know. I was for a while too. But thats OLD news!

So…Just a quick update in case anyone cares…And if you dont care, then what the hell you doing reading my blog anyway, nosey nellies??? 

MY JOB: As you all know I started a new job in June. It is going tremondously well. I LOVE it and they LOVE ME…(I mean, really, who DOESNT love me???) I am rather irrisistable!  LOL!!!

Okay, I kid…A little!

But the job is going great and I got word today that we are expanding in January and I will be first on the list for a move up the corporate ladder…WOO HOO…Go me!

One of my best friends was hired on there today as well…I got her a temp job there and my boss liked her too, so they hired her today…I am very very proud of her and excited to have a friend now at work…DEEEEELIGHTFUL!!!

MY LIFE: Is going much better these days…My drugs I am on are just lovely, and I do think in just two weeks they have made a difference. The hubby says I am MUCH more tolerable these days and much more like my old self…Apparently, my head no longer spins around and I do not projectile vomit any more (Okay, in case you missed it, thats a reference to the Exorcist…)

So, anyway…I find myself laughing much these days…Which is good…Being silly and goofy again…Feeling very good…Very good…

THE MARRIAGE: Hubby and I are still going to counseling. We have four sessions left…Its going well…I have to laugh tho, as last week our Dr. raised her hands at the end of our session in a somewhat joking manner and said “I gotta tell  you…You guys are the strangest couple I have counseled in a long time. Most people come in here hating each other…You two are just too darn agreeable with each other!”

At first I felt bad taht we didnt hate each other…So I offered to punch my hubby for her if that would make her feel better…Hubby wasnt amused…But really, communication has never been our problem. I mean, come on…This is me we are talking about…I force people to talk, I do! I would talk to anyone anyday about anything…Yep. Talking is NOT our problem…

Anyway, we are still trucking along and I think the medication WILL help my marriage some too…So this is an ongoing thing…We arent fixed yet, but we havent given up yet either…

MY WEIGHT: Dropped another pound this week. I gotta admit, Its been a rough week. I think I have a worm. I have been hungry ALL week long…WAY HUNGRY…Last week I didnt eat at all due to nausea. This week I ate my way through each day…This is not good…So I am slowing down tonight. Working out…Trying to get myself in gear.

I must say I am not really too concerned…Now that the rest of my life is in a much better perspective, I find myself looking at my weight loss much much more different. I updated my before and current pics tonight and you know what? I have come a long long way…

Yep. Sure. 30 more pounds would be great. And I will get there eventually…I will. I know this in my heart…

But I am sure gonna have fun on my ride there…

Thats one thing this crazy year has taught me…Life is a crazy wild mess and your destination is unknown, so you best enjoy the ride, because that just might be the funnest part!

Take care all!

Love ya mean it!

Dawn