Ahhh. A breakthrough!
Happy Sunday buddies!
Well, the weekend started off pretty rough. Mentally, I have been as drained and challenged as one can be without going into the deep end…
Well, Okay…Mayb I DID fall overboard…But I kicked and kicked and managed to stay afloat!
Friday sucked and Saturday morning did too. I was having a HUGE freakin pity party for myself…I was soooo whiney I was annoying myself!
Truly, you know you have problems when you get on your own nerves!
Saturday morning I was mad at the world. Several small, personal things played into this, but truly, most of my loved ones fell into my “Oh woe is me” tirade…I was pretty mad at all of them…Thankfully, none of them were aware of this!! HAH!!!
So, to releive some stress and frustration, I went to the gym. I worked out, and hated every minute of it. But I did it!
THEN, my day got better…Truly…
Met my two sisters for lunch and drinks, and for the first time in three years all of us were together. Laughing. Talking. Drinking!!! We had a blast. And truly, it must have been what I needed because I feel 10 times better today!
Reading all of your comments and your blogs have helped pull me out of my dolldroms too. So thank you to all of you who took the time. YOU ARE ALL APPRECIATED!
I am not even close to 100%, but I am still moving on…For I really have no other choice…
My new plan is this…I am throwing out my food journal for a while…
WHAT???? WHAT DID SHE SAY???? Yes, most of you know, I am a DIE HARD beleiver and user of the food journal. The old fashioned PAPER kind. I carry it everywhere and for nearly EVERY DAY of the last three and a half years, I have written down every morsel…I am completely and utterly burned out on it…
Soooo. While I struggle to find my way back to the path of righteous rockin weight loss, I needed to make some changes…This is a change I can make…
I am giving myself one month without it. I will try during that time to eat right and utilize portion control, while increasing my exercise…
If, after a month, nothing has changed, then I will bring it back and change something else…
See, I think focusing on both things right now, the eating and the exercising has stressed me out, burned me out, whatever…So I picked the thing that has made the greatest difference, and I gotta be honest…The exercise won out…
Do not get me wrong. YOU NEED BOTH TO BE SUCCESSFUL…I know this. But until I can get myself grounded again, I need to focus on just one…
And the exercise has changed my body and my life….So I am starting there…I do not plan on eating McD’s every night. NO WAY…What I hope to do is learn to make good choices WITHOUT the help of my food journal. I need to test myself to see if I can do this on my own…
I feel pretty good today…
Bought a new dress for the wedding next week. Right off the rack at Kohls…A large…No EXTRA large, just a large. And it fit and I look nice in it. I will, of course, post pics!
So thanks for putting up with me and all my rantings and my abandonment…
I am trying very very hard to fight my way back here. For myself first and foremost, but for you all second…So that you know that if someone as half baked as I am can do it, then CERTAINLY all of you normal folks can do it too!!!
Have a great great week guys!
Love-
Dawnie
Glad things are sunnier your way!
Glad your day got better!
Have a good one!
Hang in there Dawnie. All these changes in your life take time to adjust to. I know from reading your past blogs that you are capable of doing anything!! You are such an inspiration to us all, even if you don’t feel inspired yourself.
Things will turn around. You’ve done such a great job and I, for one, plan on following your progress. I showed my husband your before and after pics and said you were doing an awesome job and that you look really good!
Keep up the good work and let us know how you’re doing minus the food journal.
(((((hugs)))))
Dawnie, I am glad you are back! I am proud of you for still making an effort to take time for you. I know it’s not always easy to do that for yourself. I am proud of all your efforts…as well as all the help that you are to others. You are an awesome friend!
Hey, you’re making your way back and that’s what matters. I’m here for you Dawnie. Come on Buddy….stay strong!!!!!
Hi Dawn,
I’m so happy that your weekend turned around and got better.
It’s so great that you have a plan now.
So many times just having a plan puts us back in control and we need that.
So now you have a plan to focus on exercise and not your food journal.
It does feel great having a plan doesn’t it?
Take care Dawnie
and best of luck to you
Lori
I’m glad to see you are on an up-swing my friend.
I however, am losing my mind, Butch came to town to visit today.
So glad you had a better day and you WILL have many more to come, promise!
–Valerie
Glad to see you joking and having fun. Changes are good and good for you for trying something different. It is not at all easy sometimes. Exercise is a great choice and focus I have found. It gives you that boost when it seems YOU REALLY NEED A BOOST ! Cheers
I think you made the best choice, Dawnie, and changing things up can make all the difference in the world!
Dawnie,
You really are on this for the long haul!! You are always trying new things to mix it up, you are determined like crazy girl!!! I know you will be at goal, maybe not in the timeframe you wanted, but you will be there. THis isn’t a race!!!
Oh I hardly EVER write down my food, and look how far I’ve come. So try it and see how it works. Glad to see you around, you always make me smile!!!
Your bud,
Tina