The Tortoise and the Hare…
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Now, everyone has heard this story, no????
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Well, I was originally going to title this “Confessions of a lazy dieter” but honestly, I am NOT lazy and I didnt want to lable myself as such…
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But I do feel like a tortoise!!!
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This diet journey has got me down kids…Honest…
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Someone pointed out to me yesterda that I am tired of the journey…And I think they are right. I am tired…
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I have been on this road a long long time and frankly, I am weary of it all…
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So sure…I can sit down and take a break. That is certainly an option…
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I can get off the trail all together, and although that is considered an option, it really isnt for me…For if I get off, then I end up right back where I started. And well. I will NOT allow that to happen to me…I cant…
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I will never ever ever be the 241 pound me again…I swear it!!
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So, because I am so tired, and I can never decided whether to take a break or not, I do continue to go…Albeit, at my own horribly slow pace…
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And this is what has stressed me out this week…I cant seem to gather the strenght, the conviction, the motivation, to tackle my weight head on, and quickly…
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This whole journey has seemed to just go sooooo slow for me…And MOST days, I am okay with that, and then somedays, like yesterday, today, I think WHY?!? Why IS it taking so long??
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Do I want it less? NO
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Am I lazier? NO
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Do I not really want to be thinner? NO
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So why?????
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I have reflected and reflected. I have reached out to a few buddies here too, for honest, truth telling feedback, and well, I still dont know buddies…I dont know why I lose in 20 pounds increments, then stall for a while…Its not my body. ITS ME!!!!
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I know what to do. How to do it. And when I do it, I do it damn well…
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But my motivation seems to come and go a bit more frequently then others out here…
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I do well for a few months, then I self sabatoge…UGH!!
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Well, after a self thrown pity party, and some deep soul searching yesterday, I find I really have no choice but to continue…I really dont…My journey isnt done yet, and I know I want to complete it…
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So until my motivation comes back, I am putting my head down, and putting one step in front of the other, and I will continue, regardless of how tired of this all, that I feel…
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So yesterday I had an absolutely 100% on plan day. This is my first in two weeks, and I know most of you know what a big deal that is. Its a start. I will now attempt day two…And I know I will be fine. Eventually..
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Just hate feeling this way. I hate being a tortoise…Although, I do have a soft spot for them, I much would prefer to be the hare. At least once!
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Oh well. Heres to day two!!!
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Special thanks to Wonder Woman, Tasha and Scott…For listening. For the tough love. For the advice…Its appreicated!
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Take care buddies!!
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Slow and steady wins the race, you are making changes and sticking with them so you will be able to maintain your weight loss. You are amazing doing 5K and 10K walks for good causes, lost an incredible amount of weight, always happy, you slip off track you get right back on, and you motivate so many people. I am so proud of you for not letting yourself walk away from this journey when it gets tough even if it does take a little more effort to lose those pounds. Hope you have a wonderful day.
Change is such a difficult process, isn’t it? One day you are raring to go, and the next it all seems pointless. Motivation waxes and wanes, and somedays you just want to not have to think about it anymore. But look how far you have come!! It is so frustrating to take baby steps, but that is what gets you and keeps you where you need to be. The hare may initially beat us in our attempts for the finish line, but what happens to them? They get overly confident and don’t think they need to stay on plan, and ultimately regain their weight. So even if you feel like the tortoise, remember who wins in the end!!
Don’t put your head down…hold it up, HIGH! Be proud of what you’ve already accomplished. Sure, you’re not where you want to be, but you’ve already come so far and you should show pride in that.
And you know that the slower you lose it, the easier it is to keep off.
So, your body needs a break once in a while. Hey, you’re doing a lot better than me! Imagine being stuck on a plateau for 6 months!! I haven’t given up, and I’m not gonna. Just gotta find what works!
Keep it up, Girl. You’ll get there!!!
My personal opinion (and I read the Dear Diary conversations you’re having in that joint
so I know you appreciate honesty) is that if you can’t find the answer, you haven’t reached deep enough and faced it. I’ve been slacking and my truth is that I don’t want it bad enough. As awful as that sounds to ME because I pride myself in getting everything I want through hard work, it stings to know the truth of my short comings in my personal goals on this journey. There’s a truth there Dawnie……YOUR truth is within you and when you’re ready, you’ll look at it dead on and either accept it or fight to change it. Either way, congrats on your day yesterday. That’s the way to start. 
Always choose the tortoise! For only the tortoise has time to enjoy life as it is happening. For the hare, everything is a blur and the end of the race is the only prize. For the tortoise, the journey is the prize. Life should be savored one moment at a time. Allow today to wash over you and refresh and renew you! And as for those plateaus…your body gets comfortable with where it is and sometimes you have to change things up to kick start it again. Be on plan, but be different. Try new foods, take a different route on your runs, find something new to learn. But in everything you do HOLD YOUR HEAD UP HIGH! If you are staring only at the road, you will never see just how far you are really getting, cause the road don’t change honey, only the view!
I really appreciate you saying this about how frustrating it is when the weight doesn’t come off quickly enough. I feel quite enervated by the very same situation. If I was losing my pounds more quickly, I would feel much happier in the process. But now, I?m just sticking to the plan, yet it seems only I?m only maintaining my weight (it?s coming off, but soooo slowly…). The only reason that I still persist is that … well… I really don?t have a choice, do I? If I get off the plan, I may start gaining. Maybe you feel this way too, that this is the source of your frustration ? that you have to watch it ever so closely ? to avoid gaining weight, but at the same time not really expecting to loose much. Ahg! I have to go and kick something right now…
Look at this situation from this perspective ? you are now learning not to loose weight, but to maintain weight. It is a lesson that your body gives you in advance so that you realise that even when you will reach your target weight, you will still have to ?be on a diet? probably for ever…
So you have hit that blah phase too huh. I thought I was alone. Guess not. I know what I have to do to, just lack of motivation and plenty of stress. Hold your head high Dawnie look how much weight you’ve already lost. Don’t look at what you have left to lose. In other words your glass is not half empty. Think about how great you look. Smile girl you are doing it and you had much rather be doing it slowly and keeping it off than loosing it quickly and gaining it right back.
Aww, Dawnie, I think we all get like that. Time to focus on the benefits of being healthier! Do you feel better? Is your endurance better? Think about that. You can do it, I know it!!
Just look at your before and after pictures, and remember how great you are doing. Enjoy the healthy lifestyle, and your healthy body! Take care.
This is my first day back in a month due to a hective schedule and I have to get on and find Dawnie and see what you are up to. And you are going through a motivational malaise today! Well, I am with you dear! The motivation comes and goes. I am just grateful that I am not gaining and still enjoying the benefits of my hard work so far. After a blissful weekend at the beach being Off-P, I am back home and thinking that I have got to keep working to get rid of these thighs. Your new pixs look good. They portray you healthy, active, getting more slender each month, enjoying your young life. Blessings on you, “Girl at Play”!
What a heartfelt blog!! I have been struggling with these same issues since I crossed the finish line at the Chicago Marathon. I don’t know why I just can’t do what I know I MUST. I want to reach my goals so badly, I do. And you’re right….I train for and finish marathons, I run a household and go to work each morning, I can’t possibly be lazy, so what is it? Right?
I don’t know Dawnie, but I can honestly relate to what you’re going through. I just hope and pray to God that soon, I find the strength and motivation that I need to materialize my dreams!
Keep at it Dawnie. I know in my heart of hearts that you will reach your goal!