Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

Good evening my very Slim Buddies!

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Well, first, thank you to those of you who wished Steve a happy birthday! He was tickled to read all the birthday well wishes!!! Some days, I think he wishes he was fat, so that he could join our little club! In the meantime, though, he is only allowed on occasionally! And ONLY after I have pre-approved his reading material!!!  

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We had a great time today, of course, in Ohio’s Amish Country. The weather was less then stellar, but we made do…I did endulge in some cheese and wine, but I kept it in moderation, and well, I feel good…

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I got a VERY VERY good workout in yesterday, by the way…I worked out for 20 minutes on my elliptical and 20 minutes on the treadmill! YAY…

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UPDATE: Yes, the machines are STILL broken. YES I have sent a not so nice letter to our Property Manager. YES I will be attending the next board member to publicly state my complaints…And NO, I can not buy a personal elliptical machine…Been there, done that, and husband says NO…It sat in my spare bedroom unused for a year…I sold it on ebay in the Fall…For some reason, I am better when I leave the house to exercise…

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So anyway, my mom and step dad came up last night to spend the night and go to Amish Country with us today…

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And here is my delightful story to share…I was getting ready this morning, and I was rushing downstairs to put on my tennis shoes…

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And my step dad, Yogi, says “Ummm. Dawn…I have to tell you something…”

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And so I look over at him and he is all kinds of shades of red in the face, and I say “Yog, what is it???”

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He replies, “Well, I am not quite sure how to say this without having you think I am a creep, but so I am just gonna say it…Your butt looks really cute lately!!!”

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Then he turned 10 shades red-er and apologized profusely!!

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I, on the other hand, shout for joy and say “THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! I have been loving my butt lately TOO!!!” and I was soooo excited that I ran to the back door, where Steve was outside with the dogs and I yell “HEY STEVE, Yogi says my butt is  getting cuter!!”

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This, of course, mortifies my poor step dad even more!

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Now, before any of you go off and think that he is some dirty old man, let me assure you that he is not. I adore this man. He has known me before I was born. He was best friends with my dad long before my mom, or me, for that matter came into the picture…

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He has never NOT been a part of my life, and he is the kindest, most decent man I know…

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So, you see, this was welcomed news  for me because I come from a long long line of flat butted people. HONEST…And I have been working on the elliptical butt for over a year now…Apparently, it is finally paying off!

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YAY for elliptical butts!!

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So, I am glad I had the day off, but am ready ready ready to get down to business this week…

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I have a new plan to shake things up a bit…I will keep you posted…(It’s top secret, so I can’t share it yet!)

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Congrats to the Red Hot Hotties this week! You guys are really rockin it!

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Have a super great week everyone!!!

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Dawn

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Don’t you just love quickies???  Okay…Okay…That was bad…Sorry…Hopefully there is no one under the age of 18 reading…

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So I hope you all had a wonderful St. Pat’s day…I certainly did!

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I will spare you all the gory details but for the first time ever, I celebrated for most of the day! Started at noon and ended at midnight…Many drinks later…I lost count of my drinks, but I learned a few things…

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My husband knows way too much about alcohol! He had to show a bartender yesterday how to make a drink called an Irish Flag…Its a shot, really…And man, was it delish!!!! (For those of you interested, its Cream DeMint (Green) Baileys (White) and Grand Marnier (Sp?) (Orange)…You layer it in a shot glass and it truly resembles the Irish Flag…It is completely yummyfied!!!)

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I also had no idea how much I like Bailey’s Irish Cream! I have it all the time in my coffee…But had no idea you could just order it on ice!! Me and my sister in law threw back a few of those…And she kept saying “Are you SURE this is alcohol???” she had no idea either…YUM!!!

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So we had a mighty fine time…

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I am getting ready to head up to the work out room this morning to get in a very long, very full, “The day after” workout…

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I will probably be MIA for the next couple of days, as tomorrow is the hubby’s 43 birthday!! (Is he ancient, or what????) so I  have the day off and he and I are going up to Ohio’s Amish Country for some cheese, wine, and delicious pan fried chicken…No, I will not be on plan at all…

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And no, I dont really care!

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I will eat in moderation, and work it off this week. I have promised myself to do so…The weather is promising to be much nicer this week as Spring rolls in, so I feel pretty good all and all about my plight in life!!! (Well, diet wise! LOL!!)

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Take care buddies of mine…Have a very happy Sunday and Monday, and I will catch up with you all again on Tuesday!

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Love-

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Dawnie

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Happy Friday Buddies?And a special thanks to JO for providing me a title for my blog!!!

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I have been on a journey of self discovery?For about four years now, since my father died rather unexpectedly. I think that happens when you lose a loved one?His death changed my life forever, and gave me more questions then answers?But that?s a blog for another day!!

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So yes, I have been on quite a journey?Because I am, and have always been, the type of person to ask why?I analyze everything, including myself?I don?t believe anything, really, on first hearing?I research it, and form my own conclusions?I am often the person who is not leading the pack, or following the pack?I am often the person off by herself doing her own thing?(Remember that from Sesame Street??? ?One of these kids is doing her own thing?????That?s ME!!!! )

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I hate titles, rules, boxes?Etc.. I do my best to always break the rules, prove the title wrong, and live outside the box?

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And I believe it is my true purpose in this life to leave this world a better person then I came into it?So I continually work on myself?I fail often, but I succeed often as well?

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So along those lines, I will say I reverted last night to an old and undesired behavior?

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I went to the workout room, AGAIN?Late, this time?To avoid the rush?I get there, and there are just two other people signed in, so I think all is good?Not soo?Two men there, one on the elliptical, one on the treadmill?UGH!!!

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Now, I live in a Condo community of probably 500 residents??? And we are now down to ONE working elliptical and ONE working treadmill?For almost a month now?

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So I went ahead and did my weights, but I could feel it building buddies?Frustration?Disappointment?The tears started welling in my throat before I even got home!!! TEARS!!!! Now how ridiculous is that???

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So I get home, and husband sees my red face, and the tears that had started?And asks rather innocently, ?What?s wrong???This of course was all the ammo I needed?The dam burst, the floodgates failed, and I became like the chick in the Exorcist movie?You know, when her head spins around and she spews green pea soup???

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?What the hell do you think is wrong??? I couldn?t get on either of my machines once again??

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Now, in my defense, I asked him several times to just leave me alone so I could gather my wits?But he is ever so bad about that?He wants to fix everything right away?So he sits there and tries to be all rational and such?Which is NOT want I wanted to hear?I just wanted to cry and get my frustration out?This is a HUGE difference between us guys and gals?

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So we had a nice fight for about 15-20 minutes?And I had a really good hysterical cry?All because I couldn?t get on my damn machine for like the fourth time this week?It is ever so frustrating to finally be MENTALLY prepared to work, and then have life toss you a freaking lemon?

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So, this morning, as I reflect on my behavior of last night, I realize I have  a long way to go still?I don?t like getting that upset about something that was soooo far beyond my control?There were a half a dozen ways I could have handled that whole thing better?But I chose not to do that?I chose to take the easy way out, and just let it ruin my night, and that of my husbands, and I went to bed sad, angry, frustrated and depressed?

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UGH?The journey continues dear Jo?

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Don?t worry?Husband and I are fine?We learned a long time ago how to fight and not to fight, and we were fine before we even went to bed?(Lesson to you newly married folks?Always apologize if you were wrong?Don?t let your ego prevent that, and always talk things through?Trust me?It works?)

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So this morning I go ahead and weigh in?Even though I knew darn well I had gained?How could I not??? I had a food melt down on Wednesday night, and the only REAL exercise I have gotten in this week were a few walks and some weights?I haven?t been on my elliptical since Sunday!!! (See Tracey, I miss my elliptical too!!!)

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Well, lo and behold, the lord decided to smile on my poor pathetic self this morning and I am actually down a half of a pound from last Friday?A half of a pound is really nothing on a good day, but on a bad day, it is EVERYTHING?

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I couldn?t update my ticker, because we cant do halves on those, but it was just enough to send me into this holiday weekend with a bit more confidence that I WILL get a grasp here on this whole thing?Eventually?I know this?I can feel it just around the corner?Slightly out of reach, but definitely attainable?

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I hope you all have a GREAT Friday, wonderful weigh in?s and if you celebrate it, may you all have a blessedly wonderful St. Patrick?s Day?

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And don?t drink the Green Beer?That stuff will kill ya!!

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Drink a pint of Guinness instead?It will do your body good?PROMISE!!!

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Happy Thursday buddies?It is raining bucketfuls here in Central Ohio?I was awoken in the middle of the night by my terrified Australian Shepherd mix named Annabell?She escaped out of the spare bedroom and scratched at our door until we let her in! She was terribly frightened of the thunderstorms?Silly dog?

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I of course, let her sleep with me then, and all was well?Except I myself was then awake for two more hours?Let me tell you?TV. between the hours of 1 a.m. and 3 a.m. is crap!!

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Soooo?I am starting to feel mentally refreshed these days?(Is that a collective sigh of relief I hear from my buddies???) I know, you are all saying THANK GOD, she will now shut up about it all!!

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But alas, that is not sooo?

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Things are finally settling in my head?I feel more ?normal? these days then I have in a very long time?(Well, I use the word normal very very loosely!)

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I have been working towards this for months, but it is only in the last few weeks where I have actually started to feel it?Sorry I pulled away from you guys for a bit?Just something I felt I had to do until I got my act together?I do hope you all understand?

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Things with my husband and I have finally broken through a bit?We have had some troubles for many many months?Mostly me, not him?Honest?But lately, I have started looking at him again?Really looking?And I sure do like him these days?And well, that?s good?We will be together 14 years in June, and, well, that?s a long time in my world for a man to stick around (Repressed father issues, sorry!)

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So things are looking up there?Finally?This is a huge huge weight off my shoulders and my heart buddies?Truly?He and I have been through sooo much, that it is truly amazing that we can still be best friends after all the crap we have wallowed through?And I am incredibly thankful he sticks it out with me?For I have not made it easy for him?(THANKS STEVE!!)

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Soooo. On to my weight loss?

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Kids, I am afraid to say I had a total meltdown last night. I have no idea why or how, but I went to one of my favorite Wing places last night, and indulged in my favorite wings for the first time, I kid you not, since last July?JULY of 2006!!! That is the last time I had a real chicken wing?See?I stay away from them as they are a trigger food for me?

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For some unknown reason, I decided to chuck my diet yesterday and went for the wings?And fries?And?

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It was bad?

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I ordered more food then I could even hope to put away, really?I only ate 3 of the wings, before I was full?And I ate a few fries, and about a quarter of a sub?I was full and miserable, and in the old days, I would have put it all away, I simply cant anymore?

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So, it wasn?t as bad as it could have been, but it was still more calories then I normally consume in a week, let alone one day?And when I was awake at 1 a.m., I was STILL miserably full?And I asked myself, after whining this week about how slow my weight loss has become, why I allowed that to happen??

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Well, here are my reasons?

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The equipment at my workout room is still broke?Going on a month now?So nightly, I have not been able to do my regular routine?I have had to switch to different things, and walks?Which granted, is still exercise, but it just doesn?t ?Feel? right to me?I am definitely a creature of habit?Love love love my structure and routine?When I lose it, all hell breaks loose!

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Second, I caught a really bad case of Spring fever, from a friend, who shall remain nameless?And I simply don?t want to exercise indoors as much when the weather is nice?Of course, today, it is not soo?

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I have been soul searching for many weeks now?About this weight loss?Reading your blogs?Comparing myself to you?Some of you have lost tremendous amounts of weight in just two months?Some of you haven?t lost anything at all in many many months?

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So I have been trying to figure out which group I fit in?Or if I am just my own group???

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From August to December I dropped about 24 pounds?Not too shabby?From January till now, I have dropped TWO?TWO POUNDS?Now granted, there was some severe re-gain and re-loss, but TWO pounds is the official result?

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So I say, WHAT THE HECK???

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Its me. I know its me?I just haven?t figured out how to fix it yet?

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This is where I am at today buddies?

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Thanks for listening! And may you all rock your weigh in?s and your work outs this week?

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~Dawn

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If you have a moment, check this out…Kind of interesting…Eh??

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Have a happy Wednesday all!

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Dawn

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So it should be no surprise to you all that I have been in a bit of a funk lately?I am pulling out of it thank God!

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But one of the things I struggle with (per yesterday?s blog) is truly appreciating how far I have come?Because I am soooo desperate to get those last 30 pounds off, I often overlook the 60 pounds I have shed?

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So. I was talking to my boss yesterday about it, and she told me about the Dog Food Test?

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She too, has battled her weight?And she has a best friend who has as well. And she got really tired of hearing her friend complain that she had only lost 40 pounds?

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So one day she took her friend to the grocery store. They picked up a 40 pound bag of dog food, and she made her friend carry it around for an hour?Her friend said ?I am tired, can I put this down?? and my boss said ?Nope, not until you realize that you have lost all that!?

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So she told me yesterday, I need to do that?I kind of laughed it off?

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Well, it just so happened, quite remarkably so, that as I was leaving the house this morning, I noticed Steve had bought a new bag of dog food for our girls. And it was sitting by the front door. I read the label and it said 37.5 pounds?So I picked it up. It was very heavy, and I put it back down?I did this several times?.

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Well, he comes to the top of the stairs and says ?Dawn, what in the hell are you doing?? and so I told him the dog food story?

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He was ecstatic!! He was like ?THAT IS AN AWESOME IDEA!? He said I really need to do it, because I am a visual kind of gal?And that he too is tired of hearing me whine about how far I need to go still?

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So we had this discussion about how I have lost a bag and a half of dog food?And how much that truly was!!!

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I said if I carried those around all day, man, I would be exhausted!!! And just think, I used to carry that around all day all night!

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He then reminded me that I was always exhausted?He reminded me how I went to bed nightly around 8!!! 8 o?clock!!! He reminded me how I never went anywhere with him?

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He reminded me of time we went hiking?We LOVE being outdoors and doing nature like activities, and I had forgotten this trip. We had gone down to the Hocking Hills here in Southern Ohio for a picnic and a hike?And I had to climb a set of probably 50-60 wooden stairs, and I had to stop THREE times to catch my breath on the way up. He was soooo worried about me that day?He remembers me struggling to catch my breath. He remembers my face being beet red?According to him, it was awful?He really thought I would keel over that day!

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I remembered it?And I thought man, if I had to carry a bag and a half of dog food up 50-60 stairs even today, it would be rough?Yet for years I voluntarily carried those bags in the form of fat around my body?

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The thought of that dog food sitting on my heart, my lungs, my kidneys, man?It made me think?

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And it made me appreciate the 60 pounds of dog food I have shed?

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Soooo?The next time you are questioning, doubting, what 5 pounds, 10 pounds, or more feels like, and that you want more more more, I suggest you stop at your local super market, pick up a bag of dog food, cat food, or even a sack of potatoes. Lift it and hold it for 15-20 minutes?

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Then tell yourself you aren?t successful?

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Hmmm. I am really not even sure how to begin this blog?

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Been sitting here for 15 minutes thinking it through?And I don?t really have an answer yet, so I think I am just going to open my thoughts and let them pour?Let my fingers do the typing and see if I make any sense at the end?

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I think, someday, when I am done with this journey, I shall truly try to write a book about the ups and downs of a significant weight loss journey?I really don?t think that my journey has been or will be any different from any body else?s?There are mental reasons we all became fat, and there are mental reasons we all want to lose the weight?There will be mental reasons some of us fail, and some of us succeed?And until we get to the heart of that mental matter, we will keep going round and round in this cycle?

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I am absolutely convinced that this journey is probably 95% mental?I think where I may differ from some is that I talk about it more?I talk a lot?About everything?You may have noticed that!  Just my personality. I don?t really believe in holding back your thoughts and feelings?Honesty has always been incredibly important to me?Honesty to others, but above all, to myself?

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I, of course, reflected quit a bit this weekend?

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For the last few months, I have been thinking that it is because of my weight loss that I actually kind of ?Wigged Out? for a while?I mean, I truly was not myself for way too many months?But I think it finally hit me this weekend that it wasn?t the weight loss that did it, necessarily?It was what the weight loss was hiding?

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See, we, all of us, I think, use our weight as an excuse? ?People don?t like me because I am fat?? ?I can?t do that because I am fat?? ?I have enough to deal with being fat, I can?t tackle that too?? It is far too easy to blame the fat?

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See, we don?t fix the things that need fixing, because we can?t quite see them through the fat? When you shed significant amounts of weight, those things are finally revealed to you. You really have no choice BUT to acknowledge that it might not have been the fat?It might have just been YOU!! And you can fix them, or not, the choice is still yours, but if you choose to fix them, well, it starts a whole other journey?

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I have read several articles on this subject, and it is truly, truly not uncommon for marriages to end after one, or both partners lose a significant amount of weight. I believe the reason for this is the above?Shedding the weight not only reveals the good newer parts of you, it often reveals some parts you might have been hiding?From others and yourself?Parts that were less then stellar?

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I believe this is also why some of us lose friendships as well?The toxic nature of some of our relationships are finally revealed, and you have to chose to cut them lose, if you want to continue getting healthy in mind and spirit?

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So this weekend, it was quite pretty here in Central Ohio?So late yesterday afternoon, I sat on my deck, in full sun, and I just thought?

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And I thought, if this was my last day on earth, how would I want to spend it???

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If I died tonight, and I get to heaven, and look back over my last day on earth, do I want to have spent that day thinking about my weight?? Obsessing about that weight??? Or obsessing about things that I really can?t control? Thinking of my friends and their lives and things that really don?t impact me?? Thinking about lost opportunities, and missed connections??? Dwelling in my head thinking of every single ?What if? or ?If only? ??? Analyzing myself and others to death????

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The answer is a giant NO?I do not want my last day on earth to be that?

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Sooooo, since none of us ever know when our number will be called, I decided I must DAILY strive to not do that?I must somehow over come my mind. This is the next step in my journey?

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I want my last day on earth to be full of thoughts of love?

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I want to think about my husband who has loved me, made me laugh, shared all the ups and downs of my adult years with me?I want to think of my mom, and how she makes me laugh. And how she single handedly raised two beautiful daughters with no man by her side. I want to think of my sisters and all the memories we share?I want to reflect kindly on my friends, and individually, what they have all brought to my life.

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I want to think about my animals?How they have loved me unconditionally. How they are excited to see me EVERY day?How they could care a less if I was 300 pounds or 100 pounds. All they ask from me is food, water, a soft place to lay their heads at night, and the occasional potty break?

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And above all, I want to smile?Smile and laugh?

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That would be my ideal last day?And I hope that day doesn?t come for many many years, but in the event that it comes sooner rather then later, I have promised myself that I will at least TRY?I will try to spend less time in my head with negative thoughts, and try, instead, to just BE?To be me. To be happy. To enjoy what I have been given and stop wondering why I haven?t been given more?

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I shall appreciate how far I have come in my weight loss (And LIFE) journey, and enjoy my success?I will strive for more, but I wont obsess about it. I won?t beat myself up for not being a certain size by a certain date?

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I shall appreciate the folks who have chosen to share my life, and let go of those who have chosen not to share my life?

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These are the things I shall TRY from this day on?

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?There is only one success - to be able to spend your life in your own way.?  ~Christopher Morley

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Happy Friday Everyone-

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First, thanks to Erika, Kerry and Mary for checking on me?I do appreciate that!

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I am fine?(Well, that?s truly up for discussion at any given time!)

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I am in a bit of a funk these days, and not sure why, but for some reason, buddyslim is part of that?

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I shall try to explain a bit. Please bear with me?

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I have had a rather exhausting 8 months?Many life changes?Personal, work, etc?

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I did an abrupt U-turn in January in an effort to grab a hold of a life I thought was kind of spinning out of control?So I have been chugging down that road for a while?And now, well, I kind of had to pull over to the side of the road for a breather?Hanging out at the rest stop, if you will?

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See, I wasn?t quite myself back through the fall and early winter?Not sure who I was, really?And am still trying to figure that out, while also trying hard to move on?It?s a very delicate balancing act?Moving towards the future, while not getting hung up on the past, however, they are so closely related at times, it?s hard to separate the two?

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Now the thing is, I am back in my life, participating, learning, growing, reconnecting with those I neglected, but still trying to incorporate those life lessons I learned in the fall?

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Where this has left me today, is I don?t feel like that ?Past? part of my life quite  ?Fit? me, and I am now thinking this ? Current? part doesn?t quite ?Fit? anymore either, because of the lessons learned from my journey in the fall?I may have learned too much, risked too much, and grown too much, to just quietly return to life as it was?

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So I have been thinking hard over the last two weeks of how I can blend the two ?Me?s? if you will, into a current version?And I haven?t quite figured it out yet, and that is why I have been away?

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I have outgrown my life a bit, I think, and need a way to get it altered, so that all pieces fit together again?

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Buddyslim was a HUGE part of my life in the fall?I spent many many hours a day on here?So as I have been reflecting and re-evaluating things, I have kind of drifted from here a bit?Not forever, just needed to figure out where to reprioritize it?

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I share all of this ONLY because I feel I owe my buddies at least that?I don?t think my life is any worse off then any one?s else?s these days, and I certainly know things could ALWAYS be worse, but it is what it is and I wanted to share?It is not a pity party by any means?

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In addition to all of that above, I get on the scale today to see absolutely NO MOVEMENT once again. This, seriously, almost made my head implode?I have my weight loss mojo back. I know this. I have been good for two weeks. Exercised, and been within my calorie range EVERY DAY, and still nothing?I have been in the 180?s now for about 6 weeks. I have been flirting with the 170?s for weeks, and frankly, today I am simply tired of it?

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Today, I want to throw in the towel?

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So that is where I have been and where I am buddies?

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Sorry to be a bit of a downer today?I am working desperately to get all aspects of my life back on track?Honest?

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Take care and have a wonderful weekend?

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Dawn

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Happy Monday buddies!!!

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Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

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Mine was okay. I am going to call it my yin/yang weekend?

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There were spectacular parts and not so spectacular parts! I hate those kinds of weekends?Really!

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The spectacular part: Had a very nice weekend with the husband?Lots of talking, bonding and what not (use your imagination for the what not!) HAH!!!

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We went shopping on Saturday to like 5 different stores?Now, this is something we have always had fun doing together. We have always enjoyed grocery shopping together. I know not why?But we went to several specialty stores on Saturday and even did some beer shopping, which, you know, in my book is always fun!! We laughed and joked a lot and that was fun?

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He headed to a concert with a friend on Saturday and I headed out to a bar to catch a friend?s band. I actually talked my sister into going with me, and we had what I thought was a lovely time!

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I did not buy one single drink for myself!! FIRST TIME EVER?I had three beers, and they were all purchased by other folks?WOW!!! That has never happened to me, but I sure liked it!!! The band was pretty good, and I had a nice time?

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Then on the drive home, the roads here in Ohio were incredibly bad?Snow and ice had moved in, and I saw about 7 accidents on the freeway. I made it home safely as did my husband, but man, was I ever so worried?

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The not so spectacular part: Apparently while at the bar with my sister I said something that offended her?And instead of telling me about it, she left mad at me?I had no idea. Honest!!

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I had been drinking and so had she?So instead of talking to me about it, she blogged about it on her myspace!!! EGADS!!! Nothing like spilling your secrets to the world before telling me!! GEESH?I was ever so livid yesterday morning?So she and I spent a good part of the day bickering back and forth through email no less, and both of us being incredibly childish?UGH!!!

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So that was kind of dark cloud hanging over my head. I hate fighting with those I love. Honestly. I seem to fight nasty and dirtiest with those I love the most and I have no idea why. Maybe its because we know we can. Maybe I know that no matter how I act they will still love me, I just don?t know?

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At any rate, I am working on this for sure. Actively. With several people in my life. So this morning I swallowed my damn pride, and humbly asked for forgiveness, and me and sis are working things out. Thank God, but man?YUCK?Certainly was a damper on my otherwise groovy weekend?

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The husband and I are coming along nicely now, and that?s certainly a small weight lifted off me?We are becoming friends again, and well, that?s nice!!

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Food and exercise was good this weekend. I had some increased beer consumption, for sure, so need to work on that this week! But truly am hoping to be in the 170?s by Friday. Keep your fingers crossed for me! I think I will be just fine. I do?

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Other then that, just typical boring Monday?Gonna go read some blogs. Take care all!

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~Dawn

“Who’s that girl, who’s that girl

When you see her, say a prayer and kiss your heart goodbye
She’s trouble, in a word get closer to the fire
Run faster, her laughter burns you up inside
You’re spinning round and round
You can’t get up, you try but you can’t”

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~Madonna 1987

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Good morning friends! Just a quick blog this morning before I start my day!

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My husband and I did like 32 loads of laundry last night…Can I even tell you how exciting that was on a Friday night??? BUT we did drink beer while doing it, so you know…I think we will start a new trend…Beer tasting laundry parties!

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So I am getting dressed a few moments ago, getting ready to head up to my gym…And I am pulling my hair back from my face in a pony tail…First, because it’s finally long enough to do so, and second, because I sweat like crazy at the gym (sorry for the visual )…

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And I dont have my glasses on, because I am also washing my face…And I am quite blind without them really!

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So I am willing to admit I may have been seeing things! But I tell you, I pulled my hair back, and looked at myself in the mirror, and truly, truly, noticed for the first time in a long time how much weight I have lost in my face…Why, I hardly recognized my ownself!!!

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It was truly bizarre! And the kicker? I liked the girl looking back at me!! I thought, “Hmm…She’s a cutie!”

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So you know, just a small victory in this war I am fighting, for sure, but I thought I should share non the less…

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Hope you all have a great Saturday and a great weekend…

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I am off to the gym, then gonna do some Spring cleanning, and then my husband has decided we are going shopping for even MORE beer, so I am way excited about that…

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I am going out tonight to see a friends band, BY MYSELF no less…UGH. I have never in my life walked into a bar alone…But none of my loser friends will go with me and the husband is going to a concert tonight, and well, I kind of feel obligated to visit this friends band…So say a prayer for me…If you guys knew how shy I really was, you would realize what a big deal this is!!!

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Take care all! Stay healthy! Good luck RED and BLUE teams!!!

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Cheers!

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Dawn