Spring Cleaning…
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Or a fresh start?
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Wasn?t really sure what to call this blog?Prepare yourselves buddies. I am about to purge!
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First, thank you to all of you who showed concern about my missing blogs these last few days, and with my back situation?The back of course, interfered with the blog writing?The back is much better thank you?Something I have dealt with since 96 when I ever so elegantly slid down 6 metal stairs, in the rain, on a loading dock and landed flat on my back?Life has never been the same for my poor back?
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I will say whole heartedly this was the first real ?Episode? I have had in a year and a half though and I definitely credit my weight loss and nightly stomach crunches for this. I think I have really strengthened my lower back muscle?
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Okay. Onto today?s blog?
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Buddies, from August through December, I was on a freakin roll. I lost 27 pounds in that time frame?Life was good?Then came January?And one pothole after another prevented my wagon from moving forward?I have kind of lost and regained the same 5 pounds here in the last few weeks?
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There are many reasons for the potholes that I won?t go into here. But I will say most of them were self created, and some of it was simply an excuse to just take a breather?
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I realized, really, as it was happening, that it was, and that I was ready for a short break (which is growth for sure!)?So for the last week I have not journaled, or exercised?I took the whole week off and just simply watched what I ate?
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Well, last night as I was watching the Oscar?s, it occurred to me that I felt ?weird??(I know, I should be used to feeling weird!) but this one was different and at first I couldn?t put my finger on it, but as I got more bored with the Oscar?s, I retreated to my head for more conversation?And by the time the evening was over, I realized a few things. I felt fatter. I felt HUGE disappointment. I felt disconnected from my own plan. I just didn?t feel good?
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I realized rather quickly that I missed my little routines?That even when they aren?t showing me the results I want, the simple fact that I continue to do them keeps me in line?
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So I turned to the husband and told him point blank how I was feeling and that I was not happy at all about it?I took full responsibility, of course, but I really feel like I need to complete this next phase?I asked again for his full support to help keep me in line for the next few weeks until I am strong enough, once again, to do it on my own. This means he needs to think outside of his box for a bit and FORCE me to do some things I may fight for a while?
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I have asked a couple of my good buddies to also help me?At least for awhile?I kind of look at my buddies as kind of my training wheels?I know I need to take them off, so I can ride solo, but just knowing your back there should I wobble, helps me keep my eyes on the road?
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So I feel pretty good this morning. I missed my food journal and I wrote in it first thing this morning and even titled the page FRESH START?I packed my lunch for work, and weather permitting, I am going to start walking during my lunch hour again. This is something that has been missing since November, and I think it has really worked against me both physically and mentally. I look forward to my walks as a way to clear my head daily!!!
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I have tossed out all previous goals?I really don?t want to put that pressure on myself. I had wanted to be at goal by end of May, and well, most likely I wont be, but I refuse to dwell on that. I knew this journey would take me a while. That?s just my personality?But I am confident because of the time spent on this journey, and all the life lessons I have learned, that I will only take this journey once?This ones a keeper for me?
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So for now, my loose goal is at least 10 pounds by the end of May. Very reasonable. Very do-able?I hope for more but will not dwell on it. I know as you get nearer to your goal, the weight loss slows down?So I am not going to let it get me down?I have come far?
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So that?s kind of where I am at today?I feel pretty good. Refreshed and rejuvenated?.Gonna need some help from my buddies for the next few weeks until I get firmly back on track, but I also feel pretty confident that I can and will do this?
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So here?s to fresh starts and new beginnings!
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May you all have a wonderful, on plan week!
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?Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.?
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~Judy Garland
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You look great!!!! Take one day at a time you will reach your goal.
Dawnie!!
You absolutley will succeed with that attitude!!
I’ve not been on track for weeks myself. I weighed today and I’m still at 210 which means I’ve gained 4 pounds. I already decided yesterday that today was going to be my new beginning too. I’ve started exercising at home and will be at Curves 3 times a week also.
I had quit drinking water and started drinking soda again. Been drinking too much alcohol for wanting to lose weight too. I know that if I want to change my body I need to change my life style. So, I’m with you on the fresh start today. I was just happy that I didn’t have to change my ticker again!! I told my hubby last week to please remind me of how good I feel when I workout. Sometimes when I feel under the weather I choose not to go. I asked him to remind me that I asked him to tell me to GO!!!!
Good luck with your first day of your fresh start!!!! Knowing that you hit road blocks and have come so far gives me hope and lets me know that I can still do this!
Beautiful quote and so true. I’m glad YOU’VE figured out what’s going on and back on. We’re here!
Hang in there, you know what needs to be done. And you are making a realistic goal for yourself. You can do it!!
Sounds like you got a handle on things again. Glad to hear it.
I can’t help but smile - it took watching the Oscars to have conversations with yourself to figure things out - not sure why, I just find that cute. You are an amazing star, and you have shown time and time again great abilities in picking up and continuing. Losing weight is a long, tedious, angry, and amazing process so if you feel the need to take a little time off, then don’t even question it. If it takes a break to make you see how great you feel when you are in the middle of the battle and are winning, then take it. I also took a week off - from Buddyslim, from exercise, and I missed it as well…I missed the sense of accomplishment after a hard workout and feeling excited about aggressively pursuing bettering myself. I needed it, and I am sure you needed it as well (if nothing else for your back!). Also, I am happy to hear that even though you tweaked your goals a little bit, you are not putting yourself down over that. 2007 is still gonna be your year no matter what.
Oh Dawn, I know exactly where you’re at and I feel the same way - ready to get back to my routines! A break always seems like a good idea, but it never feels as good as we think it will. I’m glad you can reach out to your hubby and your buddies for support when you need that little extra boost - it makes all the difference to know that someone’s got your back when the bike starts to wobble a bit! But you’ll be flying forward on a solo ride in no time - keep up your great positivity & nothing can stop you!
Right there w/ you girl. You are my motivation. You can do it!
Hey Dawn!
Glad to hear that you’ve got that spring back in your step and are back on track!! I’m here to help keep you on plan and up and moving!! But this is the first time I’ve heard about the metal stairs messing up the back..
Have a great OP week girl!
Scott
Dawnie.. You know I am here for you.. And sometimes the training wheels get wobbly but are not quite ready to come off.. Keep up with knowing that you can achieve! And, yes, the walks are awesome!! (Just like YOU)
My friend I feel your frustration with old goals and potholes. I too have fallen into one called not smoking and I have gained 10 lbs because of it.
But I’m up, and I’m out and I am starting over with a new eating plan and a new schedule. I want to lose 20 by Mother’s Day, a gift to myself if you will. So we can kick each other’s butts in to our May goals.
I’m here for you kiddo!
Everybody needs a cheerleader, most often though little old y-o-u is the only cheerleader that really counts when it comes to weight loss success!
But have no fear! I’ll break out the pom-pom’s (forget about the skirt I wouldnt put you through that!) Along with everyone else girl!
Here are some mantra’s I’ll pass along!
?I can do this, I am doing this, I will do this.?
(?I can, I am, I will.)
?One day at a time, and I?ll get there just fine.?
?Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.?
?For your life, for your weight, take control of your plate.?
This is a very inspiring post to me. I sometimes fear what’s going to happen when I do get near to my eventual “end goal” weight, since the closer you get, the harder it is to loose the weight. You’re doing so good mentally, and I can see the maturity in your choices. I can only hope to do the same when I get where you are.
We all need to take a breather now and again my friend. I believe in you and I know you will come out of this ahead!! Keep your head up!!
I read this blog AFTER I sent the request for an update, so feel free to ignore my message to you! And yes, I am here, let me know what I can do to help you along on this journey!