Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

 

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Good morning buddyslimers of the world!!!

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Well, it is HUMP day…WOO HOO!!! How excited are we?? Well, we are INCREDIBLY excited!!!

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So, my sad little saga of the broken equipment continues…

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I get home last night, and I tell the husband “Hurry up! Hurry up! I drove by the workout room and there was NO ONE up there!” Well, of course, because he is a man, he moves slower then molases…15 minutes later he is finally dressed and ready for the gym…

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This brings on the wiferly (wiferly?) lecture…

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“Now Stevie…If you are gonna be my workout buddy, you have got to have yourself ready to go when I get home! I can not have you breakin my stride kid!”

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Seriously. It was all good folks…So then he grabs my hand and we litterally run through the snow covered fields (yards, really) for miles (a block, really) and we hit the clubhouse just as another car is pulling up…

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In a very conspiratal whisper he says “you go grab a machine, and i will save you time by signing us in!”  (The man gets it!!!)

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So I run in and see my beloved elliptical…And she does NOT have an out of order sign on her. And she is sitting there waiting…Arms wide open for me!!! I am happy as the proverbial clam!!!

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Just as I step on, another girl comes in…She goes to the remaining working treadmill, so I dont think much of it…But then she comes over to me and says “I need that machine, its the only one I use…” I look at her, smile kindly and say “You may have it in about 20 minutes, because I have been waiting for this machine for a week too…Sorry dear”…I got a look, and she walked away. Sure. I felt bad for a milisecond, but then I thought, oh well. We have to give in take in this world. And today, I am taking…

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(I should say, the OTHER elliptical was free as was the treadmill, but this girl chose to SIT DOWN and wait for me for 20 minutes!!!) I would have used some other machine. Really…

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Okay. So the point of this rambling mess of a blog???

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I LOVED MY WORKOUT LAST NIGHT…It was my first real workout in a week…ANd boy, did I miss it…Now, because my beloved elliptical is still broken, I could only do my workout at the highest incline….Which was a GREAT workout, but I did about die!!!!! I burned 350 calories in just 20 minutes due to the incline…WOW!!!

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I was on a high kids…I felt great. I really missed the gym…And that let me to realize that working out makes me feel better. Even when the damn scale does not move, it clears my mind, it clears my body in the form of sweat, and overall, I just feel acomplished when I get done!!!

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So I did let her have the machine when I finished. I did my weights and my stomach crunches and headed off to home, but I felt better then I have felt in two weeks!!!

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I needed the break, I do think so, if for no other reason then for allowing me to realize how much I now LIKE to exercise!! I NEED to exercise…

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Wow!!! Who would have thunk it???

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Take care lady bugs (And gents)

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~Dawnie

 

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Umm. In case there is any doubt after reading my title, yes, this is a venting blog…

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So, yesterday was my NEW BEGINING…My fresh start. I DID GREAT, if I do say so myself!!!I even had a few small personal things to deal with and I still did good!!! I wrote in my journal faithfully, kept my food all in check, and by days end, I was sitting at 1270 calories…YAY!!!!!

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Today I will shoot for being UNDER 1200…But I felt really good…

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So I get home and husband is waiting at the door. He is taking his weight loss buddy duties very seriously this time…He says “Lets go!!” and we change clothes and head to the workout room…

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Guess what I am greeted with at the work out room???

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UGH!!! FOUR…1-2-3-4 pieces of equipment are OUT OF ORDER…Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr…And one of them, my most beloved elliptical machine…My baby…I was devestated and PISSED, because we were down one elliptical, one treadmill, one bike, and a weight machine…

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So I go out to the “attendant” and say “I am not trying to be a bitch or anything, but any idea how long this equipment will be down?” she SAYS they were out looking at it today…Couldnt find parts, very costly, blah blah blah…

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So I reply that its extreemly frustrating to pay outrageous condo fees (145 bucks a month!!!) and not be able to use the equipment that my fees are supposedly paying for…

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Now…I didnt take it out on her, honest…She is just an attendant, but I certainly let our property manager know that this is completely unacceptable…

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So I was very fired up to work out FINALLY on my elliptical and couldnt…There is one other elliptical up there, but some super skinny chic was on it, and that made me even angrier…BLUCK…

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So I did my weights, and stomach crunches, then I came home and leashed up a dog for a walk. Not exactly the hot workout I had in mind, but, I did SOMETHING…

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If its down for too much longer, I am seriously thinking of getting a one month membership to a gym or something and making the condo association reimburse me!!!

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GOOD GRIEF…

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Well, here’s hoping the damn thing will be fixed shortly…Otherwise, I will be forever sad!!! I sure do love that elliptical…It is ancient though. Its the old kind thats on a ramp, with little roller wheels, they dont even make them any more…

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If they cant fix it, I will be crushed!!

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Well, I am off to start day two now! WISH ME LUCK!!!

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~Dawn

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Or a fresh start?

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Wasn?t really sure what to call this blog?Prepare yourselves buddies. I am about to purge!

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First, thank you to all of you who showed concern about my missing blogs these last few days, and with my back situation?The back of course, interfered with the blog writing?The back is much better thank you?Something I have dealt with since 96 when I ever so elegantly slid down 6 metal stairs, in the rain,  on a loading dock and landed flat on my back?Life has never been the same for my poor back?

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I will say whole heartedly this was the first real ?Episode? I have had in a year and a half though and I definitely credit my weight loss and nightly stomach crunches for this. I think I have really strengthened my lower back muscle?

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Okay. Onto today?s blog?

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Buddies, from August through December, I was on a freakin roll. I lost 27 pounds in that time frame?Life was good?Then came January?And one pothole after another prevented my wagon from moving forward?I have kind of lost and regained the same 5 pounds here in the last few weeks?

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There are many reasons for the potholes that I won?t go into here. But I will say most of them were self created, and some of it was simply an excuse to just take a breather?

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I realized, really, as it was happening, that it was, and that I was ready for a short break (which is growth for sure!)?So for the last week I have not journaled, or exercised?I took the whole week off and just simply watched what I ate?

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Well, last night as I was watching the Oscar?s, it occurred to me that I felt ?weird??(I know, I should be used to feeling weird!) but this one was different and at first I couldn?t put my finger on it, but as I got more bored with the Oscar?s, I retreated to my head for more conversation?And by the time the evening was over, I realized a few things. I felt fatter. I felt HUGE disappointment. I felt disconnected from my own plan. I just didn?t feel good?

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I realized rather quickly that I missed my little routines?That even when they aren?t showing me the results I want, the simple fact that I continue to do them keeps me in line?

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So I turned to the husband and told him point blank how I was feeling and that I was not happy at all about it?I took full responsibility, of course, but I really feel like I need to complete this next phase?I asked again for his full support to help keep me in line for the next few weeks until I am strong enough, once again, to do it on my own. This means he needs to think outside of his box for a bit and FORCE me to do some things I may fight for a while?

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I have asked a couple of my good buddies to also help me?At least for awhile?I kind of look at my buddies as kind of my training wheels?I know I need to take them off, so I can ride solo, but just knowing your back there should I wobble, helps me keep my eyes on the road?

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So I feel pretty good this morning. I missed my food journal and I wrote in it first thing this morning and even titled the page FRESH START?I packed my lunch for work, and weather permitting, I am going to start walking during my lunch hour again. This is something that has been missing since November, and I think it has really worked against me both physically and mentally. I look forward to my walks as a way to clear my head daily!!!

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I have tossed out all previous goals?I really don?t want to put that pressure on myself. I had wanted to be at goal by end of May, and well, most likely I wont be, but I refuse to dwell on that. I knew this journey would take me a while. That?s just my personality?But I am confident because of the time spent on this journey, and all the life lessons I have learned, that I will only take this journey once?This ones a keeper for me?

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So for now, my loose goal is at least 10 pounds by the end of May. Very reasonable. Very do-able?I hope for more but will not dwell on it. I know as you get nearer to your goal, the weight loss slows down?So I am not going to let it get me down?I have come far?

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So that?s kind of where I am at today?I feel  pretty good. Refreshed and rejuvenated?.Gonna need some help from my buddies for the next few weeks until I get firmly back on track, but I also feel pretty confident that I can and will do this?

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So here?s to fresh starts and new beginnings!

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May you all have a wonderful, on plan week!

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?Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.?

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~Judy Garland

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Okay so this blog is courtesy of my husband. He said ?I think you should blog today about that annoying chick last night??

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So here you go Stevie?This Bud, I mean, blog?s for you!

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Yesterday, I must admit, I was rather bratty?I didn?t really know what my problem was at the time, but I woke up crabby, my husband said something rather innocently that sent me into a mad frenzy, I fought with a good friend, I bit my bosses head off, I forgot to email my buddy Tina (Sorry!!)?

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Yesterday was not a stellar day for me?

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To top it all off, I was craving Japanese food in the worst way!!! I mean, obsessively!!! (who, her???) Not a food I normally crave by the way!!! Still, no lightbulb went on over my head?

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So when I got home last night, husband says quite cutely ?Dawn, I have thought long and hard about this?I think it would be in all of our best interests if we skipped the gym tonight and just went and got Japanese food!?. I was soooooo happy!!! And truly, truer words had never been spoken. He is the only one that escaped my wrath last night, and I think he has the Japanese food to thank!!!

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So, hopefully all of you have been to a Japanese steak house ONCE in your life?If you have, you realize you sit at a table with usually 8-12 other folks depending on the place?

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So we get sat next to another couple, approximately our age, maybe a tad younger?

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And I kid you not?From the moment this girl sat down till the moment she got up, she NEVER, NEVER stopped talking!!!

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And unfortunately, she was a LOUD talker?I was three people down from her and could hear every little detail of her life. I can tell you she went on a job interview yesterday, and that she was going with her ?Friend? to a movie that night. I can tell you that she LOVED the movie ?Boogie Nights? and that she was annoyed with one of her friends?It was absolutely ridiculous that I could here her sooooo clearly, three spots down, over the pumped in MUSAK music and the clinking of the utensils our wonderful chef was using?

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Now, to add insult to injury, she AND her male companion, had their cell phones out the ENTIRE dinner, texting whoever they were, and TALKING on the phone, at the table, while the chef was putting on his show?I found this incredibly rude to him and to us?

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They then, very rudely, asked for their check before dinner was over, because they had a movie to get to?UGH!!!!

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Now, I was easily annoyed yesterday, so I didn?t really think much of it, I thought it was just me being pissy?But then I looked at my husband as they were leaving?

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Now?You must know that my husband is one of the MOST laid back people I have ever known. It takes a lot, A LOT to rile him up, or irritate him?And I rarely see him confront anyone?They get up to go and he looks at me and says ?THANK GOD!!! She was the most annoying chick ever!? I was like, I know, right??? Come to find out he was soooo annoyed that he almost, per his words, ?went over and smacked her!?

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Now that I would have paid to see!!!!

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Now, I love my cell phone, I do?But there is a time and place?A very crowded Japanese food table is NOT the place?

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PUT AWAY THE CELL PHONES PEOPLE!!

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Oh, and today I noticed signs of TOM?s impending arrival?Which now more then explains my rather rude and nasty emotional behaviour yesterday!!! UGH?I HATE TOM!!!

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And the Japanese food was delightful, by the way, and I absolutely do not regret one bite! J

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Down with annoying chicks I say!!!

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Chow!

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Dawn

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(P.S., I have no idea why the fonts are funky in this post!!! Not my doing I swear it!!!! )

Okay, Old buddies, you will understand that this is the next chapter of the saga of my belly button ring…

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New buddies, what can I say, I wrote a blog back in November, I think, titled the Lord of the Ring (The belly button ring!)

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To get everyone up to speed, I got my belly button pierced three years ago as an incentive/motivation to keep on losing weight.

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They pierceologist told me NOT to do it at that time if I was still losing because he said my hole would move…I ignored him…

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Sooooo. I whined about this back in November…

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I am now going to whine about it again…

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I am very sad to report that this past weekend, the second installment of this saga was written, and the belly button ring had to be removed…

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My hole has moved soooo much due to my weight loss…While I am glad of the loss of weight, I am sad for the loss of my ring…And for the extra skin…BLUCK!!!

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But, I did it…Had too…It no longer looked cute (If it ever truly did on a fat 34 year old!)

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But dear readers, dont depair over this tragedy. I do intend to write a third installment come May or June…After I get nearer to goal, I shall rise triumphant over the flabby belly and moving ring holes, and I WILL get it re-pierced…Have no doubt!!

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Stay tuned for that exciting release, will ya???

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Take care all-

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Dawnie

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Happy Monday buddies!!!

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I am ever so ready for Spring to arrive I could just scream!!!!

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So I read Jessica?s ?Hidden Calories? blog yesterday, and I kind of wanted to blog about that?It coincides with a conversation Scott and I had on Friday.

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I can not even tell you all how much I have learned in the last few years of my journey?Soooo much knowledge out there just waiting to be discovered?

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So me and my buddy Scott had lunch on Friday?He ordered a grilled chicken Caesar salad, no Caesar dressing (Sorry Scott, I am spilling your secrets to the world!!!)

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When I returned to work, I set about journaling my lunch (Cup of soup and a small wedge salad if you wanna know!) Looking up my calories utilizing my favorite on line sites?

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Well, while I was doing mine, out of curiosity, I looked up his meal as well?His Ceasar salad, had he ordered it the normal way, would have been 1090 calories!!!! For a grilled chicken Caesar salad! And 777 of those calories??? Well, they were residing in the three tablespoons of Caesar dressing?

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To put this into perspective, I am on 1200 calories a day!!! That would have been near my daily allotment!!!

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Now, he knew better, so he didn?t get the dressing, but it sparked a conversation about how most people will simply order a salad because they assume it?s always the healthier option. And of course, it can be with a few minor adjustments, but in this case, you are better off getting a hamburger!!!

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I learned this with another common meal?I work near a Wendy?s so it?s a good, quick, go-to for me when I need a quick meal?At first, I would get a plain grilled chicken sandwich, and it came in at somewhere around 350 calories?Not bad by any means?But further research showed that if I got a plain Jr. Hamburger, I could do better as it comes in at 280 calories!!!

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Most restaurants have their own websites now too, and I almost ALWAYS visit the menu before I go to plan out and point out my meal?And I ALWAYS get my dressing on the side now a days?I use the ?Dip my fork in the dressing? method, much to the amusement of my friends and family?(Hey, it works, honest!!! I use soooo little dressing that way!!!)

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So the moral of this blog is: The absolute best gift you can give yourself on this journey, is EDUCATION?Educate yourself, and help educate others. Whether you count points, calories, fat grams, etc?Read those labels, read books, read articles, utilize the wealth of knowledge on the internet, and don?t blindly order something just because you think it might be healthy?

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Hope you all have a happy, healthy, on plan week!!!

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Love-Dawn

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Good morning buddysimmers! Happy Sunday to you all! We are still in a deep freeze here in Central Ohio?Let me tell ya?I am kinda tired of it. I am sooooo very ready for Spring! UGH!!!

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Starting off on a high note, I got on the scale yesterday morning before our Cleveland trip, and I was down some more?I have lost almost all the weight I had regained in just three days of being 100% on plan?I am very thankful for this, of course. Not sure why I am losing it sooo fast, but I shall NOT question it and just be thankful that I am?

I am going to stay on plan for the whole week this week, as I have nothing outstanding going on in my social life?Well, maybe a visit to a local bar Tuesday to see a friends band and enjoy ?Fat Tuesday? in the form of liquid libations?That?s about it.

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I am going to work out all 7 days this week too?

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Okay. So yesterday the husband and I headed to Cleveland with my Sister in Law, Brother in Law, and my five year old nephew Ryan?We were stopping at two brew pubs to do some beer tasting?

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The first one we stopped at was having a little one week celebration of sorts that they call ?Ogre Fest??So I had told Ryan on the way up that we were going to Ogre Fest?So we get there, and settle in, and we start to peruse the menu, when he pops up and asks our waitress where the Ogres where? She then tried to explain to this 5 year old that there aren?t really Ogres here?That it just meant they were carrying, on tap, a bunch of heavier beers then normal?In essence, beers an Ogre would like?

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I look at her and say, ?How do you know the Ogres like big beers? Did you guys do an Ogre pull of their top five beers or something?? She didn?t really answer me by the way, but Ryan thought it was hilarious! (Yes, my humor caters to five year olds! ) but then Ryan looks at her and says quite seriously, ?You should have called Shrek. I bet he would have come. I bet he likes beer??It was ever so cute?He was disappointed there were no REAL Ogres there, but then his chicken fingers came and all was right with his five year old world again?

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We had a great time on our trip yesterday!! I ate and drank without reserve, but I can honestly say I only ate once yesterday. I did not eat all the food I had ordered, and I was full much quicker then I wanted to be?Some of that could be blamed on the 12 beers I consumed! It was a great time though and today I shall be right back on plan?

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I gotta say though, that the miserably full feeling I carried with me through out the evening last night. I just don?t like it.

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I simply don?t like eating to complete fullness anymore?It makes me soooo miserable, like I have abused my poor stomach to no end?And I certainly don?t do it often these days, but yesterday was a great reminder of how crappy food can make you feel?BLUCK?I did not like it so I am gonna try hard NOT to feel that way again for a long long time?

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Hope you all have a great restful Sunday!!!!

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Stay warm!

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Dawn

Happy Friday everyone! Mine really isn’t freaky, but I couldnt think of a clever title…

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I don?t have  much stimulating conversation or any outstanding wisdom to depart today…I know you all must be incredibly disappointed!  Hah hah hah…

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Since my Valentines Day Massacre, I mean, weigh in, I am down another ? pound, so I have lost 2 ? pounds in two days, and that is FINE BY ME?

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This gain hit me hard, and I have refused to let it get the best of me?

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So today is day three of my 100% on plan day. And I think I shall do just fine?

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Tomorrow, I am off plan, as the man and I head to Cleveland. We are touring TWO breweries/restaurants and doing several beer tasting?s. There is no way on earth I will stay on plan?Heck, don?t even want too!!! Nor will I have time to workout, but it?s all good?

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Sunday I will be right back on track. I know this?So I won?t be around tomorrow buddies?Please contain your tears, okay???

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I will finish up by saying that I am still struggling a bit to find some new ?Spring Time? motivation?Gotta find my groove right quick, for sure!

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I am doing a lot of soul searching and evaluating as we speak to figure out how I lost it, and how I can get it back?

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I want to send a very special thank you to Miss Tina, who is going to now be my daily email buddy and help keep me accountable for my actions. I appreciate it very much!

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Is it Spring yet???

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Have a wonderful weekend all!

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Good luck on your weigh-in?s BOTH RED and BLUE teams! (I am remaining neutral, just like Switzerland!)

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~Dawn

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Today, I am going to send a giant cyber hug and a very special thank you to each and every one of you who commented on my blog yesterday?There were 15 of you, and I gotta say, I was feeling pretty darn low yesterday?  

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It is my nature to beat myself to a pulp, and then pick my self up?You guys were instrumental in that process?I actually was at home all day yesterday due to the winter storm and I checked in frequently to read your comments?

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You guys are wonderful and don?t ever underestimate the job you do when you take the time to comment on someone?s blog?

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So?I am very happy today to report that even though I was home all day yesterday (With the husband no less!) I stayed 100% on plan. I wrote down every calorie that passed my lips. I measured out my portions just to get reacquainted with them. I bundled up like the abominable snowman and walked through 10 foot drifts of snow to get to the work out room (okay, slight exaggeration) and this morning, I weighed in at two pounds less then yesterday. I don?t care if it was a fluke, or water, or what, the scale was down and I seriously needed to see that?

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I guess you could say I just got back to basics?

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So I feel MUCH better today?And I owe a lot of that to you guys and this wonderful community?THANK YOU!!!

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I must also send a very special thank you to my husband Steve who had to put up with my breakdown yesterday morning, but handled it like the true trooper that he is?On Valentines Day, no less! Thanks Stevie!

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And to my buddy Scott who lent me a hand up, once again?Thank you for not letting me feel sorry for myself too long!!

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I hope you guys have a safe and warm Thursday!

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I have chosen this song today as my theme song:

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?I see trees of green…….. red roses too
I see em bloom….. for me and for you
And I think to myself…. what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue….. clouds of white
Bright blessed days….dark sacred nights
And I think to myself …..what a wonderful world.

The colors of a rainbow…..so pretty ..in the sky
Are also on the faces…..of people ..going by
I see friends shaking hands…..sayin.. how do you do
They?re really sayin……i love you.

I hear babies cry…… I watch them grow
They?ll learn much more…..than I?ll never know
And I think to myself …..what a wonderful world

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Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world!?

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~Louis Armstrong (What a wonderful World)

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Well, buddies?

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First of all, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!! I hope you all have a valentine you can snuggle with today! If you don?t, well then, go out and do something nice for yourself, and by all means, don?t be sad or blue! It?s a silly made up holiday anyway!!!

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Okay?On to today?s blog?

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I wave a white flag above my head?I surrender?I have been defeated by the scale?It is sad but true?And the defeat does not sit well with me?Admitting defeat is incredibly hard for me?

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So my two week, anti-scale campaign has not gone well?I weighed in today, and I did gain?I will not tell you how much but it was a couple pounds?I kind of knew it was coming?

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So I am very disappointed in myself. I am to blame for this?My eating has been absolutely horrible in the last four days?I think the cold weather had something to do with it?I have been craving warm, comfort, carb filled food, and I have had LITTLE desire to exercise?I have still exercised, but not at my full potential. I know this?

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Sooooo. Here are my lessons I learned and what I will pass on to you all?

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*LESSON ONE- For me, the scale is a necessary evil! Without my weekly weigh in and mid-week PRE weigh in, I kind of lost my accountability?I still journal?d, but I lost my ?Oomph? my power AND desire to say NO to myself and others?I went over my calories every day for the last four days, and although I will never know in which week the gain came, I am going to assume a lot of it came in the last four days?I will now go back to weighing in every week.

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I am a very structure loving person?The scale is part of that structure?Part of my routine?Just like my food journal. Without it, I fail?I will not allow myself to fail, so the scale has reclaimed its place of honor in our bathroom where it will remain. The scale was victorious?

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*LESSON TWO- There are some things that I will never or rarely be able to keep in my house again?Mainly, CHEESE?I love cheese. I would eat it in a house, I would eat it with mouse?I would eat it anywhere; I would eat it here or there?

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This weekend, as a snack, I purchased two blocks of gourmet cheese!

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Grapes, gourmet cheese and a good wine has always been our snack of choice for as long as I can remember?Well, I stopped doing that for obvious reasons?But this weekend for some reason, I thought it would be safe to allow cheese in my home?It was not?

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This is something that I can not, and will never be able to eat in moderation?I have eaten, pretty much single handedly, two pounds of gourmet cheese in four days?I am not proud of this in anyway, I simply share it with you all because I want you to know that I too have roadblocks, and I too stumble?

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*LESSON THREE- It is okay, at this stage in MY GAME to take a day off?It is not okay, and will probably NEVER be, to take two, three, and four days off?This is a disaster, and I must now set about RE-losing weight I have already lost?RE-LOSS is the crappiest kind of loss ever?TRULY?

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*LESSON FOUR- I will never ever have this weight loss thing completely down?Every now in then, you must look hard at yourself, and ask yourself the million dollar question. HOW DID I GET HERE, and WHERE NOW DO I WANT TO GO FROM HERE???? We must all do this?With jobs, life, weight loss, etc?Today, I asked myself that?

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You see, I think there are several factors that led to my defeat?The weather is one that is valid?The no scale thing is also valid?And for me, confidence?See, I was confident that I had this weight loss thing soooo down, that I could NOT weigh in?That I could be a little more flexible in my journaling and food choices. That I could relax on the exercise ?just a bit??

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What I learned, and this is the hardest of these four lessons, is that NO?I will never NOT be able to NOT be aware of my eating, my food habits, etc?For me, since I do have legitimate food issues that caused me to become obese, I will ALWAYS on some level,  have to be aware of my red flags, my trigger foods, my trigger situations?This will be a lifetime commitment in the grandest way for me?For when I become TOO confident, I also become too lazy?I have seen too many really good friends lose a large amount of weight, only to slack off and regain it because of this same problem.

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I will not?CAN NOT allow that to  happen to me?

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So from this moment on, I shall set about re-losing my pounds?I am disappointed and depressed but I will not wallow in it?

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I have vowed to stay 100% on plan for the next three days. And I know I will do this?Saturday, I have a pre-arranged belated Valentines mini-day trip with my husband. I will, in moderation, enjoy that day, OFF PLAN, but turn right back around on Sunday and get back on. This I will do because I have decided I will?

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Take care buddies and I will check in with you all later! OH!! Special thank you to TAMMY for joining me on this disasterous science experiment!!!

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~Dawn