Curious Findings…
Good morning buddies and Happy Saturday!
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Well, the Hockey game last night was a bust. We lost pretty bad…BUT even so, I was still excited to be there and enjoyed my first ever NHL game. You gotta find the positive, right??? 
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We had good seats, they kept us entertained throughout the evening, and we got all kind of cool free stuff!! YAY!!! (They shot tshirts into the crowd out of these air guns and it was the COOLEST thing ever! I really really want one of those tshirt guns!)
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However, much to my husband’s annoyance, I think, I was like a giant kid!!! I wanted to go everywhere and see everything and I asked at least a hundred questions…He is usually most patient with me, but I think I taxed his patience last night! 
I even asked for a stuffed Stinger toy for my collection (He is the mascot!) and I was denied! I was most devestated…
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The real reason for this blog though, is a rather curious event that took place prior to the game…We went to dinner at Ted’s Montanna Grill…
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Now, I had been good all day, and was only at about 450 calories for the day at the time dinner was about to be near…
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For those of you who dont know, I count calories and hold to a fairly strict 1200 calorie a day diet. This works for me, this is healthy for me, and honestly, I am rarely, if ever, left hungry…
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Soooo. I knew I could have something “Junkie” and be okay. So I did order a hamburger and fries…
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Now, fries are one of my all time weaknesses, and I can honestly say that in the last four months since re-committing to this journey, I have MAYBE had them 3 times…I just cant stop at a few so its best to skip them all together for me…
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Well, the food comes, and even though I was very hungry, I found myself eating maybe 5-6 fries, and seriously folks, I ate ONE quarter of my burger…I was actually sad that I got full so quickly, because let me tell you, it was a DAMN good burger!
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What I find soooo odd this time around for me, is that I think my body is soooo used to its 1200 calories a day now that it just doesnt really need or like when I attempt to go over…I really really wanted to eat it all last night, but I just couldnt!
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And that was definitely unusual for me…And even though I didnt break down my calories for that meal, I bet if I did, I would still be right around my allotted 1200 calories…Its just kind of crazy…
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Food is just sooo different to me these days, and that has been the biggest change of all…Where it used to bring comfort and joy, it no longer does. Now its just nourishment when I need it…I think I have finally broken my emotional attachment to food. And thats a pretty big deal, I think!
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Well, I hope you all have a happy happy Saturday! Here in Ohio we are just hours away from the biggest college football game of the year…GO BUCKEYES!!!!!
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I will check in tomorrow before the site goes down…
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Take care my buddies!
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Dawnie
You go, Sister!!? It is surprising when you go to allow yourself a ’splurge’ and your body says no!? I still amaze myself sometimes!
Well. now you’re just gonna have to go buy yourself a Stinger for Christmas!? You can wrap it upand put it under the tree with a tag on it saying it’s from Santa!!? Then you can open it up and act all surprised!
I’m glad to hear you had fun! It must feel strange to notice your eating habits changing.? I remember that feeling from years ago when I used to excercise and be fit but I’m still attached to food now.
That is an amazing realization you’ve had there Dawnie!! You are so there, you know, that place you get to when you’re REALLY gonna make it to your goal!! Keep up the great work!
Oh, and I agree w/ Mary–you gotta tell Santa you want a Stinger for xmas!!
Hugs,
Angie
You have come a long way along your journey!? What a wonderful sense of accomplishment you must feel in knowing that you are no longer a slave to emotional eating.? I think most of us on this site, if not all, have twisted emotional relationship with food….so to see you overcome it, it just gives me much joy for you and much hope for me!? Thanks for sharing such a HUGE milestone in your journey!
That is awesome that you could actually walk away from the rest of your food especially since you were full.? I too get full a lot sooner then before but I have always been one of those people that has to clear my plate.? Especially if we go out, I feel like I need to get my money’s worth no matter how full I am, weird I know… I wish I could do what you did last night, good job!
Boy to I understand what you are saying!!? Finally, for once in my life, I am eating to live instead of living to eat.? Its such a weird concept for me.? TOday I was eating my lunch, some broiled fish, and some veggies, and I was just stuffed.? And couldn’t finish it.? I mean, not like I was eating pizza, just a healthy meal, and I was satisfied.? What a concept!
So I totally know what you are talking about, its such a neat feeling to not be obsessed with food!? Keep up the good work!
Tina
Dawn - They won!? Bet your happy!? You are doing great - I look at you and know I too can do this!? Thanks for the inspiration.?
Dawn,
How cool and I’m so happy for you…I want to find that place some day sooner the better!
xoxoxo
Becky