Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

And no, I dont mean the mode of transportation…

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I mean the restaurant, of course!

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So, I dont mind telling you all I am a bit out of sorts today…

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Nothing major, or of any concern, but I have been spending way too much time in my own head over the last 48 hours, analyzing some things…

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On top of that TOM is almost on my doorstep, and I am sure that is affecting me as well. He is due to arrive any moment, really. I really DONT like him that much!

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Sooo. I go to Suway before my daily walk. Fully intending to eat bad, simply because I feel like it. I am in line contemplating a 12 inch Tuna or Steak and cheese…

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Bad, because they both contain my favorite things. CHEESE and MAYONAISE…

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Seriously, cheese and mayonaise are my two favorite food groups!  I am one of those weirdos who puts mayo on her french fries…Well, I used to in my old world…

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Anyway, so I get to the counter, and my head, before I could even stop it, ordered for me. Quite rationally, I might add!

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It ordered a 12 inch sub, but just got Roast Beef, no cheese, no dressing, etc…

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My heart was devestated!!! IT SO WANTED TO BE BAD!!! I swear it! I have no idea how that happened…

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And to top it all off, I have NO idea what I was thinking ordering a 12 inch! I sat at the park, ate half the sub and I was quite full!!!

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Soooo…you know its been a really crappy day when you TRY to eat bad, and you simply cant!!!! I mean, geesh!!!

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Damn head..Always interfering with my plans!

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Take care buddies!

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Dawn

So, yes, this blog title should tell you everything you need to know…

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This one has gone to the dogs…

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So this morning I am up bright and early at 4 a.m. No reason, really, just my body saying “GET UP YOU!!!”

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So I go to the spare bedroom to let the dogs out…There stands all three of them bright eyed and busy tailed…Wagging their tails so hard their butts are wiggling…

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IT’S FOUR A.M. and they dont seem to care…

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So I let them out, feed them, pet them, and then, out of boredom, I start reflecting on that…

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These dogs, no matter what, greet each day with enthusiasm…It doesnt matter to them if its 2 a.m., 4 a.m. or 8 a.m., they are up, happy and ready to start their day as soon as they see me…

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Not only that, but they are almost ALWAYS happy…

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Well, minus the dreaded trip to the Vet’s office, they almost always embrace every event with love and enthusiasm, and they show it, physically by wagging their tails, jumping up, and barking…

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How lovely, I thought!

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Not only that, but EVERY time they see me, they are very happy…

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They rush to greet me when I get home from work, they rush to greet me in the morning…And they dont care if I have ignored them all day to go work out, or type on the computer, they still sit there, waiting for me to show them just a bit…A tiny bit of love and attention. And when I do, they look at me with such complete devotion…Man…That’s rare…

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To them, I am a God, an object worthy of their devotion, even though often, I am not…

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So this morning, I was thinking I could probably learn something from my three silly mutts and one nuerotic cat…

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I should start greeting each day with a bit more happiness and enthusiasm, because its true, there could be the dreaded Vet visit today, but also, there could be kibbles, ear scratches, walks and belly rubs…

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When we wake up, we never know what events the day will bring…

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So thank you girls!!! This one is dedicated to you…Michaela, Annabell, Lucy and Bridgette…

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For loving me unconditionally and for greeting each day, as if its the greatest day on earth!

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I love you, you crazy furry kids…

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Well buddies, I can tell you that the absence of this site running like it used too has done near driven me to the edge of reason…It was not a long drive, trust me…

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But, I am going to attempt to remain opptomistic as the bugs get worked out…

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Sooo. We have finished the first official week of the holiday season…I think I did better than I ever have before, but I did NOT do as well as I wanted, or need to, to make it through the next month in one piece…

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I must say, I am starting to freak out a bit when I look at my calendar…

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Along with the obvious holiday obligations, I have a Wedding, and four day trip to Chicago, several Christmas dinners with friends, shopping expiditions, night outs on the town with friends, etc…It does make my head spin…

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Last year during the holiday season I gained 10 pounds!!!! EGADS!!! And that was one of my darkest moments and when I decided to get back on track…I have lost 32 pounds since last Christmas. THANK GOD!!!

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I am hoping I am in a much better place this year, and can withstand some of the tough situations I will be in…For the most part, I can handle the food…For the most part…

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For me, it will be challenging to find the time to exercise as regularly while fitting in all these extra commitments…

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Sooo. I am trying to inhale deeply, and give myself some credit, but I must admit to you guys here, out loud, I am incredibly afraid of falling off the wagon over the next month…

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I am afraid of failure…

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I am going to try to do all that I have been doing, and hold close the successes I have already had, but it will be challenging…

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I hope we can all make it through this holiday season buddies!!!

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Take care and thanks for stopping by…

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Dawn

Okay buddies…

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For my own sanity, I am going to stay away from here for a few days…

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I cant handle the slowness of this new site or all the errors and bugs…

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So if you need me, or want to chat, I would LOVE to hear from you.

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I do have a page on my space as dawnrenee1313 or you can contact me at dawnrenee1313@hotmail.com. That is my home email adress…

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I miss you guys, but I have spent soooo much senseless time trying to get on this site this weekend that its ridiculous…

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So I will be hanging out over on myspace for awhile…I’ll check in again at the beginning of the week to see if things are better…

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Take care all!!

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Love Dawn

 

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Okay Buddies…

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I have been trying to get in all day, and the site just is not cooperating… 

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I do try to be patient, but lets face it…Patience is clearly not a virtue I posses!!!

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So I just wanted to say Hi while I had the chance and let you all know I am thinking about you during this holiday week…

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Hope you all did good this week!

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I had a half pound gain, which I am going to work like crazy to get off by Monday!!!

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Because TOM is right around the corner and he always screws up my plans!

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All right, I will post a regular blog once the bugs and kinks get worked out of this crazy new slim space…

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UGH!!!!!

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Dawnie

Okay. So I am glad buddyslim is back, I like most of the changes, but I have lost some buddies, and been demoted from an Intern to a Freshman! YUCK! Hopefully, Dr. Marc can work out those kinks!

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So today’s blog…

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Last night I indulged. I did. I do NOT call it cheating, because I did it knowingly and willingly and I still wrote down every calorie consumed. I was over about 250 calories for the day though, so yes, it was an indulgence.

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I had pizza!!! Normal, greasy, fatty, pizza from Dominos. I had been craving it for days and last night I gave in to that craving…

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Now, I have had pizza lately, don’t get me wrong, but I usually get a very light, very healthy veggie pizza from a local chain here called Papa Murphy’s Take and Bake. (EXCELLENT PIZZA HERE FOLKS!!!)

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But it has been almost 5 months since DH and I ordered a pizza in…And so I ate it, and it was pretty good…

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First: I only ate one and a half slices and I was full! Unbelievable!!! The old me could have put away at least 3-4 in a flash…

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Second: At about roughly 3 a.m. in the morning, I was up out of bed like a rocket with a stomach ache from HELL!!! My body, apparently, rebelled against the junk I had fed it!

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So as I laid on the couch waiting for the wonders of the Alka-Seltzer to kick in, I reflected on this…

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And I decided that the pizza was good, but it wasn’t THAT good… So I thought perhaps it was time to say goodbye to one more bad habit. The time had clearly come… And clearly, my body no longer wants or needs that kind of junk…

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As a matter of fact, I had a most delightful salad yesterday at lunch and really, that is the stuff my body now craves.

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So this goodbye is not sad for me…I don’t think it means I will never eat a pepperoni and cheese pizza again either, for I am not that naïve! But I do think it means that my body now wants new, healthier things, based on the changes I have made, and since my body has been kind to me, I decided I shall be kind to it…

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So goodbye for now my little pepperoni pizza! I’d tell you that you will be missed, but I am not so sure you will be!

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HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING BUDDIES!!!!

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Love-Dawn

Good morning buddies and Happy Saturday!

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Well, the Hockey game last night was a bust. We lost pretty bad…BUT even so, I was still excited to be there and enjoyed my first ever NHL game. You gotta find the positive, right???

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We had good seats, they kept us entertained throughout the evening, and we got all kind of cool free stuff!! YAY!!! (They shot tshirts into the crowd out of these air guns and it was the COOLEST thing ever! I really really want one of those tshirt guns!)

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However, much to my husband’s annoyance, I think, I was like a giant kid!!! I wanted to go everywhere and see everything and I asked at least a hundred questions…He is usually most patient with me, but I think I taxed his patience last night!  I even asked for a stuffed Stinger toy for my collection (He is the mascot!) and I was denied! I was most devestated…

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The real reason for this blog though, is a rather curious event that took place prior to the game…We went to dinner at Ted’s Montanna Grill…

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Now, I had been good all day, and was only at about 450 calories for the day at the time dinner was about to be near…

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For those of you who dont know, I count calories and hold to a fairly strict 1200 calorie a day diet. This works for me, this is healthy for me, and honestly, I am rarely, if ever, left hungry…

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Soooo. I knew I could have something “Junkie” and be okay. So I did order a hamburger and fries…

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Now, fries are one of my all time weaknesses, and I can honestly say that in the last four months since re-committing to this journey, I have MAYBE had them 3 times…I just cant stop at a few so its best to skip them all together for me…

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Well, the food comes, and even though I was very hungry, I found myself eating maybe 5-6 fries, and seriously folks, I ate ONE quarter of my burger…I was actually sad that I got full so quickly, because let me tell you, it was a DAMN good burger!

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What I find soooo odd this time around for me, is that I think my body is soooo used to its 1200 calories a day now that it just doesnt really need or like when I attempt to go over…I really really wanted to eat it all last night, but I just couldnt!

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And that was definitely unusual for me…And even though I didnt break down my calories for that meal, I bet if I did, I would still be right around my allotted 1200 calories…Its just kind of crazy…

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Food is just sooo different to me these days, and that has been the biggest change of all…Where it used to bring comfort and joy, it no longer does. Now its just nourishment when I need it…I think I have finally broken my emotional attachment to food. And thats a pretty big deal, I think!

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Well, I hope you all have a happy happy Saturday! Here in Ohio we are just hours away from the biggest college football game of the year…GO BUCKEYES!!!!!

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I will check in tomorrow before the site goes down…

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Take care my buddies!

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Dawnie

GO BUCKS!!!!! GO BLUE JACKETS!!!! GO ME!!!!

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Happy Friday all! Very exciting weekend here in Ohio, as I am sure you are aware!

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I weighed in today and am only down one pound, but HEY, Gosh darn it! I will take it! I was/am sick most of this week and just couldnt get the work outs in like normal. I did try as hard as I could for being sick…

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I reflected this morning on Scott’s previous blog about exercise, and I think he is sooo right. My food intake has been on par for months, and this week, I was extra good because I wasnt feeling well, but because of that lack of exercise, I was only down a pound…

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So I guess I need to come to terms with that fact as well. For the rest of my life I will have to eat like I am currently and find someway to have exercise ALWAYS be a part of my life…

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Hope you all have a GREAT WEEKEND!!!

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The belly button ring that is!

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So, yes folks, I have a belly button ring…Something a little silly that I did for myself over a year ago for my 33rd birthday…

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Why would she do this??? you may wonder…Well, I will tell you…

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I really thought at the time that it would help me with my weight loss. I had always wanted one. I think they look cute on the right belly, and darn it, I wanted to pretend for a moment that I had a hot belly… (I did not, do not, and will never have, I am afraid…)

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So I loaded up my three best girlfriends, and we all piled in a 3×3 back room of my local piercing/tatoo parlor…

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I had lost about 20 pounds at that point and was feeling quite proud of myself, but still very self consious, so I asked the young man, who was incredibly cute, and incredibly young if I was the largest girl he had ever pierced. He laughed out right and said NOT EVEN CLOSE. SO that made me feel better!!!!

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However, he gave me quite the lecture when I told him I was trying to lose weight…He actually didn’t want to do it then…Because he told me when I lose weight, the position of the hole will change…

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Well, I vitoed his objections and away he went…I told him it would be a long time before I got to goal, so just do what he was paid to do!

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Well, needless to say, it took me well over a year to get myself back on the weight loss wagon, so my theory of having it to help me was blown to hell…However, I have had much fun with it regardless, and the DH thinks its pretty groovy too!!!

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I must now confess though, that Mr. Tatoo/Piercing Hottie was quite right…MY HOLE IS MOVING!!!!! And I am most devestated…

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I am not really sure what to do about it all…Take it out? Get it re-pierced??? Decisions, decisions, decisions…

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My stomach is indeed changing with the weight loss and the nightly stomach crunches…Which is cool and all, but darn it, why is it affecting my belly button?!? Seroiusly, looked at my belly button yesterday, and it LOOKS different now…WHO KNEW?!?!?

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(Umm, I kind of feel like Mary with the toe discovery…I should have taken before and after pics of my belly button to compare the changes! HAH!!!)

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How incredibly odd is that??? Probably as odd as you all now think I am!

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Well, thats about all I have for now…Just getting myself recovered from my sickness, and worrying about my belly button ring! HAH!! The problems I have, eh????

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Take care buddies, and remember “The one ring shall lead them!” HAH!!!

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Happy Thursday~Dawn

Okay. I am one ticked off chick…

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Soooo…I am sitting here at work, just work work working away…

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Came in today with a SUPER positive CAN DO attitude…Soooo tired of looking at piles of paper on my desk, so I sucked it up, buckled down, and stayed focused in an effort to clear away the madness…Shut my door, put on my music, and blocked out all distractions!!!

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And I was doing so well!!! (Insert high pitched, girly, whine here! )

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And then WHAM-O, around 10 ish, out of the freakin blue, my throat starts hurting…I mean, litterally, out of no where!!!!

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So I try try try to ignore. My girlfriend picks me up for lunch, we head to Subway, and I am getting more miserable by the second!!!  We had a delightful lunch, otherwise…

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But now, as the afternoon has gone by, I am getting sicker and crabbier!!!

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BUDDIES!!! I need prayers!! I CAN NOT BE GETTING SICK!! I have a super cool weekend lined up!!! What fun is it if I am out for the count?!?!?! Let me tell you waht fun it will be…IT WONT BE!!!! CRAP!! I am sooo mad…

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AND…I really really need to work out hard this week because of said weekend, and now, sitting here waiting for the clock to reach 5, I dont feel like doing anything tonight but crawling in my warmest p.j.’s, and sliding under my comfy flannel sheets in my giant king sized bed…

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HELP!!!!!!

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I have already sucked on about 32 1/2 cough drops, and they have been no use whats so ever…

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BLAH BLAH BLAH…I am going to take my crabby self away now…

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Thanks for letting me whine…

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Dawnie

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