Dawn’s Weight Loss Journey

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Dia duit!  (Means literally, God be with you! Said in place of Hello!) Pronounced:   Dee-A-Gwit

WOO HOO!!!! YAY!!!

Friday weigh in day today, WAS not going to, because its that T.O.M.!!!!! Historically gain 2-3 pounds during this week…

Truly-

Today, I am down!!!!!!! 2 pounds! I CANT BELEIVE IT…Unfreakinbeleivalble…

I must be doing something right…

AND apparently, I earned a BLUE star on my ticker for reaching my 51 pound mark!!!

Hope your Friday is as Happy as mine has started out…

THANK YOU BUDDIES FOR YOUR SUPPORT…Couldnt have done it without you…

~~And a very special shout out to Scott for ALWAYS putting up with me. You are a very very good weight loss buddy…THANK YOU!!!

Dawn

Well friends, last night in Central Ohio, we had one heck of a storm…Some signs even of tornadic activity…hail the size of golf balls, sirens going off all over…My dogs were hanging off the ceiling by their toenails!!!!

At one time I saw something fly by the back window and could have sworn it was Dorothy and Toto! But, alas, it was just a giant twig!!! 

As many of you know, I had a rather crappy day yesterday, so for me, it was the perfect ending to my perfectly crappy day!

And then this morning, on my way to work, I was absolutely amazed at the amount of debris on the road…Everywhere I looked, there was trash, leaves, branches down…Rather crazy…

And of course, it made me reflect on life…Your ever reflective buddy here…

We all encounter our own storms in life…They are rarely anticipated, they are rarely if ever, fun, but I think they are necessary…Because they clear the debris…Sometimes there is so much debris clouding the situation, that you just cant see through it, and it takes a really strong storm to whip it up, and move it out into someone elses lawn…

Let them clean it up I say!!!

So I think I have found my rainbow after the storm…I needed to clear some debris yesterday, and for that, I am thankful for my storm…

Have a great day all!

Dawnie

Guys, what can I say…

I put out an SOS and you answered…How truly truly amazing you all are…

THANK YOU  to all of you who posted a response here and those of you who contacted me in private…You guys are wonderful…Absolutely wonderful buddies you are all…This place is a God send, I beleive…

I so just needed to know some people were out there, because the first thing I wanted to do today was eat…And I havent felt that way in a long long time…I thought I had that under control, but found out today, that it never really goes away…That evil little urge to drown my sorrows in grease and fat…

I havent, though, buddies…PROMISE…Because of your support, and willingness to share my burdens, I have stayed strong…And I will be okay!!!! PROMISE…

Just had a really crappy day, is all…But it is winding down now, and tomorrow God will give me another shot to get it right!!!

                                                            Thank you all…Dawn

“There is magic in long-distance friendships.  They let you relate to other human beings in a way that goes beyond being physically together and is often more profound. ” ~Diana Cortes

Okay buddies…I really struggled today trying to decide if I should even bother writting or not…

I really wasnt going to, but then I decided this is not the time to dwell within yourself…Time to look outside yourself for assistance…

You see, I try always to look forward. Always to look at the bright side of all situations…Always try to learn something, no matter how small, from every person I meet or situation I encounter…

Well, today I just have the BLAHS…And its really bringing me down and I SO dont like feeling this way…

So I need my buddies, anyone who can pop by and tell me its going to be okay…That the sun WILL come out tomorrow…(YES, I LOVE ANNIE!!!)

But life threw me a curve ball today, and I cant quite seem to recover from the blow…And I dont want it causing me to fall of track, because I have come too far to allow that…

So if any buddies out there know of some really good coping skills or have a REALLY big baseball mitt, I would appreciate you letting me borrow it so I can catch the next ball that comes my way…

Thanks, as always, for listening…

Dawn

I think I am finally going to break free from my addiction to what the scale says…

I know I know, we all tell each other this repeatedly out here on the boards…And we all try, I think…But I truly think I am going to wean myself off of my reliance on the scale as the be all end all to this weight loss journey…

Why? You may ask…Well, tonight I had an epiphany! I was at the work out room, and of course there are wall to wall mirrors for all the GQ looking guys and gals to stare and ogle themselves…

As for me and my kind, we run and hide far away from those mirrors, but tonight, I was finishing up a rather hard work out, I might add, and I was walking towards the exit, and I looked in the mirror, and I was actually shocked!!!

Now, mind you, I had on a tighter fitting work out outfit as opposed to my usual baggy garments…So I was seeing more than I normally see of my ownself and I was like MAN…Where did my hips go????

Seriously…I think they are disappearing!!! Along with some of my boobs, I might add! Which is NOT a good thing…

But anyway, for the first time in a loooooong time, I didnt really mind looking at myself…I still have a ways to go, for sure, but you know what? I am making peace with that…So if the scale is not moving as fast as I would like, I am secure in my knowledge that my body is changing regardless due to all the exercise…

And thats okay by me! I am making peace with the scale…

Thanks for stopping by and I wish you all continued success!

Dawn

Today, I am posting this for you all…I am a bit of a quote fanatic…But when I read this one it touches my soul:

“Success:  To laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.  This is to have succeeded!” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I wish you all SUCCESS!!!!

Much love to all of you~Dawn

WARNING!!!!!

This post contains highly frustrative remarks regarding those of the opposite sex! Continue at your own risk gentlemen…

Okay…This is a complete vent session!!! I should probably preface this post with the following statement…

I have had a fairly emotional weekend due to some outside situations. And I am currently extreemly pre-mentstrual! This makes for a confused, explosive, emotional, menstrual, mad woman!!!! (Sorry if that was TMI!!!)

Needless to say, serenity is not mine currently…

Okay. I will start by saying that my DH is a pretty good guy…Pretty laid back, pretty supportive, extreemly intelligent…He has traveled this journey as well as many others in our time together, and all and all, keeps up pretty well with me and all my little nuances…

This weight loss journey has been really hard for him to get because he is not now nor ever has been over weight…Nobody in his family is, actually…How he ended up with a plus size wife is beyond me…He has never ever had a problem with my weight though, and for that he does get a gold star…

But, when it comes to support and understanding on this journey, he has given me less than what I need…And yes, I have told him on numerous occasions…If you have learned nothing else about me, you should know by now that I pretty much say whats on my mind…And I handle my marriage the same way…We talk a lot, about everything…Whether he wants to or not most of the time! HAH!

Anyway, just last week he made, what I took, as an insenstive remark about my “newfound confidence” going right to my head…He made this statement in front of others, and it really hurt my feelings because I am proud of my new found confidence and I thought he was too…

Anyway, we talked the next day, he apologized, said he would try harder, blah, blah, blah…

So what then does he do today??? Something equally as dumb…

Now remember, he is a smart man. Honest. Smartest person I have ever known. Can rattle off little random facts about a million and one things…However, he cant seem to retain any knowledge when it comes to his dear wife…Is this a man thing? Or just a husband thing? Or just my DH’s thing????

Today, I am trying on some new items that I will be taking on my trip…Ummm…Items that I am taking for his benefit, I might add…And he makes a rather unkind remark about one of them, just like that…Opened his mouth and out it popped…I was absolutely devestated… Not exactly what you want to hear when you are feeling bloated and fat!!

He immediately recognized his mistake and tried to make up for it, but it was too late at that point…The pot was already boiling…

What I dont get though…Is the whole time of our marriage I have been over weight…And he has never ever been unkind…And now I am losing weight, and suddenly some of his comments are not so nice…Does he NOT want me to lose weight? Is he trying to be cruel? Or is he just having a stupid, insensitive moment? Am I just overly sensitive? Well, yes, probably, I am willing to admit, but GEESH…Anyway…I am truly trying to understand why all of a sudden he is being less than wonderful…

He is on my list tonight and I have decided to stay away from him for a while otherswise I might say or do something that will end up on the 6 O’clock news tomorrow!

So thats my vent…Just had to get it out of my head before I exploded…

If you are still with me at this point, GOD BLESS YOU!!! I appreciate your commitment…And if there are any men still reading well, you should be commended on your bravery!!!

Thanks for listening…

Dawnrn