Having a FAT day…
Okay…So maybe its the rainy overcast weather today…Which normally I like, but I am having a really bad “Fat” day today. I am sure most of us have had those…
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What really astounds me though throughout this whole journey is how MENTAL this whole weight loss thing can be. I could look in the mirror one day and say, oh, I look good today, and the next day, I feel like I look like a hag…So weird…
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Last night I went to a 70’s themed birthday party. I felt pretty good when I left the house. Got a lot of compliments on my weight loss and my costume, but this morning when I looked at the pictures, I completely tore them a part…Piece by piece, I hated EVERYTHING about them…My legs were too fat, my arms were too fat, my face was too fat, etc…
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On and on the insults to myself came…
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And I dont understand how that happens…How you can feel so good one moment, and so low the next…
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Okay. Thanks for letting me vent…I hate FAT days! 
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Dawn
Oh no you don’t girl.. Keep that head up proud!!!? Your party pics are adorable!!!? The hot stuff one is better than adorable
? Keep thinking those thin thoughts you are right on track!
We all have these days Dawn but you’re right, this journey is ALL MENTAL!!? I think once you realize that, things just click!!? So with that said, STOP BEING SO HARD ON YOURSELF!!? You’ve lost 50 LBS woman!!? No easy feat!!? So remind yourself how different you would have looked had you taken those pictures with 50 lbs more!!!?
Thank you Scott…Thank you Nikki…That was very sweet of you!
Nikki-I appreciate the reminder of how far I have come…THANK YOU!
Scott-You are wonderful as always with your support…
Still trying to shake it off…
Dawn
I remember watching a video of a party we had last year. It was the day after the party and my father brought over the tape for us to watch.?I had a great time, and worked my ass off to make it a nice time for everyone. Then there it was, me in the video and I looked awful, I wanted to run from the room, but then it hit me. This is how I look to the people around me, and you know what? They don’t care. I watched as my friends and family laughed and talked and played stupid games together. I looked at the faces of the people I love in the video, and saw how they were looking back at me, with love. You are right it’s all a mental game, and it may be a while before you can look at yourself in pictures and see what everyone else sees. I’m looking at your picture right now, and I see a beautiful woman with a fantastic smile. Don’t be so hard on yourself, and trust the eyes of the people who care about you.
Thank you Erika-That was very nice of you…
Thank you for sharing your story with me…
After 14 years of living behind layers of fat, its sometimes hard to see myself as others now see me…But I am trying!
Thanks again everyone for your wonderful support…
Dawn
We’ve all done it… I have pictures from when I was a cute teenager & I would cut all around the picture to leave just my face and/or upper body.? It’s really is all about our body image, because we are so much more critical of ourselves than anyone else is.? We don’t mutilate the pictures of our friends & families because they’re a little overweight, had a bad hair day, didn’t smile right, had on a funky outfit…. so why do we feel the need to do it to ourselves??
I still hate to take?pictures, but I refuse to destroy them anymore… I put them all in a little folder entitled “me pictures” and I am no longer afraid to look at me for how I really am… and I take pride and comfort in knowing that the things I don’t like in the photo are the things that I am working to change, but until they are changed, I am still me and I am still an awesome person….AND SO ARE YOU!
Hi Dawn,
Yes, i have had those kind of days too. I can look at myself one day and
think i look good and then another day, i pick myself apart. I couldn’t have
changed that much so quickly??? Go figure???
You should be very proud of your weightloss. Wow!!! 49 pounds…
That is such an achievement. Kudos to you!!!
Nance
We all have “Fat Days”, and girl, they SUCK!!!? It’s just part of the ups & downs of going through an emotional journey like this.? I can’t tell you how much this site has helped me get through those, though…..I know I have the people here to tell me that we all go through it and to hold my head high and move on to the next day!!
It’s easy to see the flaws we have, for some reason we have to look harder for the positives - but they ARE there!? Keep up the great work and one day you’ll love to look at your photos!!